Awesome day today. I finally went out in femme and luv'd it.
A little background... Yesterday, I got my eyebrows threaded (to less ape-ish and more gender neutral. Then I called a local department store and set up an appointment with a gal in cosmetics for today.
This morning I got up, shaved as close as i could, got dressed in girl jeans, tank top with unbuttoned blouse over top, sandals and my girl glasses. Then i got up the nerve and went to the department store for my mini "make over". As I walked into the store and located the cosmetics counter, I felt terrified of my beard shadow (despite shaving i tend to have a shadow). I was worried someone might see me and point and make a rude comment etc. But i took the advice from this site and other (sites) and I just tried to look confident and walk slowly, but naturally.
Once i found the cosmetics counter, the woman was very nice and walked me through how to put all the make up on. It took about 1 1/2 hours (she was the only one working the counter and got interupted by several customers). But she did a great job.
Before she put on the foundation and concealer i think a man walked by and noticed a guy getting made up. After the foundation, she let me look at my face in the mirror (and again after each step thereafter). Close up in the mirror i looked a little paste-y which i normally don't like, but my beard shadow was covered very well. I could tell it was me in the mirror, but i didn't look like a guy in make up which was AWESOME. In fact several other female customers walked by after that point, asked the employee questions, picked up stuff. None of them noticed, or at least didn't show any signs that i was out of place. In fact, another customer walked over and said sorry to interupt girls but can you tell me... I felt so happy inside to just blend in, which is what i wanted. After all the make up was on and i paid for my purchases, the cosmetic lady said she thinks it turned out really well (she was proud of her handy work) and she said that i looked beautiful, then asked if she could give a hug. So i did and it seemed perfectly natural, two girl friends saying good bye. Then on my way out i window shopped a couple of outfits and left.
Since I was already dressed and wearing make up... i decided to stop by the drug store to pick up make up brushes, cotton balls, and make up remover. Again no issues, no one had any strange stares.
Then I dropped my stuff off at home (the car gets hot inside in the summer), and went over to the thrift store to pick up a couple outfits, stopped by Target to get a couple bras (two of which i need to return because they were the wrong size
). While i was in Target i tried to look relaxed and casual, not stiff like a guy. I hooked the store basket over one arm and tried to lean on one foot or the other while browsing and took my time.
The check out line was long at Target and i noticed that they were opening up another check out lane at the other end. So i watched the supervisor to see if she would motion several of us over. She helped one of the customers waiting in another lane to move to the new open lane. Then the supervisor make eye contact with me and said to me "She can help you over here Ma'am". My heart fluttered because I was so happy to be called "ma'am" for the first time.
After Target I went to a fast food place and went inside to order. I ordered my food "to go". All the employees were nice and no one said, or seemed to notice anything unusual about my girl outfit and makeup. Then on my way out of the restaurant, I did catch the eye of a woman having lunch with her child. It was one of those awkward eye contact things. When you make eye contact with someone but you both hold it just a fraction of second too long so that it seems like you are staring or rude. She didn't smile at me nor say anything. So not sure if she figured me out or it was just an awkward moment which happens sometimes. Either way I'm not sure i care. I took my meal home.
In total I probably spent 6 hours or so today shopping and browsing enfemme for the first time.
Tomorrow i might try to return the 2 bras to Target. Hopefully they will let me. Then I have a doctors appointment. The doctor's office already knows I'm transgendered. So I'll probably practice doing my own make up tonight and couple times tomorrow, so I can spend the day enfemme again (going to Target and my appointment.
