Just take one day at a time, and give your inner self the time to grow and mature. Let life happen, and sooner or later you will reach "your destination" and be yourself. I have found within myself and by observing others that our moods make us who we are. I ride the city bus and I was a first grade teacher for four of my many years of teaching. I look at people and try and see if I can find the first grader they were or the fifth grader or the teenager. I don't often see it, but I do see how their lives have shaped their bodies and personality. I also see how moods and life have shaped me. That's why I say be happy, and cheerful, and loving, but as a woman you have to be a little bit bitchy to keep others from thinking they can take advantage of you.
If you don't believe me, look around at those around you. I have come to realize for myself that I am a real bitch and their is nothing I can do about it but become a real bitch and let other think what they may. I always make that point that I am a 65 year old transgender granny. I have survived and so will you if you are kind and take care of yourself. Life is safe and dangerous for everybody in the world today. Life is always risky no matter what we do. Especially when we are not paying attention. When we are alert to the risks and ready to react we can usually duck or kick off our heels, pick them up and run away, or if we can cannot do either we can turn and growl and fight them like the real bitch that we are.
The end results may be the same either way we go, except we either end up happy and at peace with our selves or end up angry and hostile and miserable.
This is just how I see it.
