Stopping T and no more periods

[wheat thins are delicious]

Dominick, I would just like to say again that 1.5 years on T is not long at all.  Puberty, which is what you are going through now, takes years.  Even cis men continue to change and masculinize more over years. 

[aleon515]

Dominick, you have me worried, bro. You sound very depressed.

Aside from this, while there are advocates for self-exam (and I think you'd have to have far less dysphoria than any of us have) a pap smear is actually a sample taken to a lab.

--Jay Jay

[Adam (birkin)]

Dominick, you have me worried, bro. You sound very depressed.

Yeah, I second this. No one should feel that way about their own life. You are worth something, to those who love you but also in general.

[Dominick_81]

Dominick, I would just like to say again that 1.5 years on T is not long at all.  Puberty, which is what you are going through now, takes years.  Even cis men continue to change and masculinize more over years.

I hope it happens soon, and the reason why it upsets me so much is b/c family continues to treat me like a girl and makes no effort to call me Dominick. None of the guys in my family treat me like one of the guys. I thought maybe if I looked more masculine they would treat me like one of the guys and make an effort to call me Dominick. Not even cutting my hair would make anyone call me Dominick. Even if I'm able to grow some decent facial hair and have a beard one day, they will still call me by my female name. My cousin told me my grandma doesn't want anyone to call me Dominick.


@aleon515: But they still have to put a tool in your part to get the sample.

@aleon515 and @Papa Taco:If you guys (or anyone) had my life, you would want to shoot yourself. I sleep till 3:00pm. My mom gets home at 3:30pm so if she finds me in bed she'll have a fit so I have to make sure I'm up and out of bed before she gets home. And after I get up I watch tv all day/night and sometimes go on the computer. And this is how my life has been since I was about 15 years old (but I didn't have a computer when I was 15, I don't think I got a computer until my 20's) and I'm 30 now. I can predict my future. I have been predicting it for the past 15 years and all my predictions have come true. I can tell you what I'm going to be doing tomorrow and until the day I die... sleep all day, tv, computer. I'm just existing in life, who wants a life like this where your just existing in it? I have missed out on so many once in a lifetime opportunities b/c I have no money to go or do anything? I never had much money even when I had a job. Every time I wanted to take a trip to see a concert my mom would be mad b/c I owe her so much money and I don't have the money to pay her back right now,(thousands of dollars) plus I'm in debt with a college loan (over 3 thousand dollars) that I can't pay back yet. My life sucks. Oh, and everyone (even people who are dirt poor like me) have these nice iphones and I have a cheap trac phone my mom is paying for. I've never got anything I wanted in life, I've always had to settle for last best, not second best, but last best. I can go on and on about how much my life sucks, but I'll stop here.

[wheat thins are delicious]

Get a job, find a hobby, go to the library, park, or something, that will make your life worthwhile.  Being online all night and sleeping all day, is not that.

Not to play internet psychiatrist but sounds like you need to seek professional medical help.

[Dominick_81]

Get a job, find a hobby, go to the library, park, or something, that will make your life worthwhile.  Being online all night and sleeping all day, is not that.

Not to play internet psychiatrist but sounds like you need to seek professional medical help.

I've been looking for a job for a year and a half and no luck. I do see a counselor. I've been seeing a new counselor. This week will be my 3rd session.

I wish I could find something in enjoyable in life, but in order to do that, ya gota have  friends and money. Money can bring parcial happiness. My car still needs to be fix so I'm still unable to leave the house. I do occasionally go to the library (when I had my car) but that still no enjoyment in life, not even going to the park. Nothing is enjoyable if you have to do it alone.

[Kreuzfidel]

Dominick, I just want to say I can see so much of my past self in you, mate.  I was in a VERY bloody similar situation - stuck living at home (30 years old) with my elderly grandparents, sleeping all day and staying up all night online - seeing no way to transition and planning my suicide after my grandparents died. 

I don't want to judge you - I know how deep those dark holes can go.  I'm just happy to see you still here amongst us, communicating and hanging on.  I'm glad I hung on - just a year after I gave up, I had a miracle happen.  It could be around the corner for you, too - I don't want to tell you what to do, what to think, etc., but I'm just glad to know you and I'm always happy to see you here.

[Dominick_81]

Dominick, I just want to say I can see so much of my past self in you, mate.  I was in a VERY bloody similar situation - stuck living at home (30 years old) with my elderly grandparents, sleeping all day and staying up all night online - seeing no way to transition and planning my suicide after my grandparents died. 

I don't want to judge you - I know how deep those dark holes can go.  I'm just happy to see you still here amongst us, communicating and hanging on.  I'm glad I hung on - just a year after I gave up, I had a miracle happen.  It could be around the corner for you, too - I don't want to tell you what to do, what to think, etc., but I'm just glad to know you and I'm always happy to see you here.

Thanks Kreuzfidel.   I'm glad that you didn't give up go through with your suicide plans and are still here today. I'm also glad you had a miracle too.

[Arch]

Okay, I have to amend what I said earlier about my experiences on finasteride. First of all, I did acquire more body hair while I was on finasteride, and my voice did go from a tenor to a baritone, and my sex drive was pretty much unchanged.

But I was off it for a few months and then went back on it. Short after I restarted it, I realized that I had had a lot more hair growth in the past few months while I was not taking it. My mustache got darker and just a bit coarser, but that will take time. The hair on my belly started creeping a little higher, up toward my chest. I started getting hair higher up on my thighs. I'm getting hair on the backs of my upper arms (lots of growth, suddenly), as well as back hair, which I've never wanted. But I'll deal with it.

And...I was getting significant chest hair growth.

I really want the body hair, but I don't want to lose more head hair. So I'm kicking myself. If I'd started transition a few years earlier, I might have gotten a bunch of body hair without having to sacrifice head hair, and so I could start finasteride without reservations. Now I feel as if I have to choose between body hair and head hair!

This could be good news for you. You have said repeatedly that you want to keep your head hair but not get body hair. Obviously, YMMV, but I thought I would put this out there. Just some food for thought.