Lately, I've been having mood swings all over the place. For the most part I've been fairly depressed which has been making it hard for me to cope. I feel as close to feeing suicidal without actually being that if that makes sense. I guess more hopeless and in doubt about ever maintaining a happy or stable life. Obviously, this is the unhappy part. On the other hand, today I didn't feel quite as depressed and miserable as I've been feeling as of late, so in a sense the small little improvement in my mood/outlook makes me happy. Sometimes the small stuff really does wonders to our self perception. Each small step and slight sense of improvement can feel like a big accomplishment when you feel really down. I'll accept that as a minor victory for the day and it sort of makes me feel happy.