Okay, first the good news: my wife is going to therapy. She has anger issues, and is finally willing to address said issues. If she can really learn good coping techniques, there is a chance that we might work. If she gives up on this, we very likely won't make it.
The bad news: When I got home from my night class, I found her drunk. She seems pretty remorseful of the problems her anger issues have caused, bit still- she was drunk. I don't know what to make of that, in terms of expectations for the future. She seems to be having trouble accepting just how damaging her unhealthy anger expression can be.
The other good news: I don't know what it is, but I've really been loving my job lately. And, over the last couple weeks, my students seem to be lining up to tell me that I'm a good teacher. It's been incredible, and I have loved every moment of it. The thing is, I used to beat myself up because I thought I didn't want to be a teacher, that I was no good at it. Lately, I have found my full confidence. I've been good for years, but only lately have I allowed myself to enjoy that realization. The last couple weeks have been so validating at both my high school and college classes.
The other OTHER good news: I have been super-conflicted about how to feel for quite a while. It has been a long week. I have decided to really ENJOY tomorrow. I won't worry about the gender of the person in the mirror; I will simply enjoy my day. Tomorrow, I tutor in the morning, which will be nice, as I like to feel that I'm helping people who need it (and my tutee REALLY needs it). Then I'll have a couple hours to kill- hopefully pleasantly with my wife- before our best friends come over and we all go to Los Angeles to watch my favorite monthly event, a live old-time radio style stage show called The Thrilling Adventure Hour. Tomorrow, I will enjoy myself without thinking too hard about the future. Tomorrow, I will just enjoy the present.
Have a wonderful weekend, all!
Cheers,
Tegan