What Made You Both Happy and Unhappy at the Same Time Today?

[V M]

Someone bought me a bacon cheeseburger and onion rings from a fast food place    I was praising the porcelain goddess two hours later 

[King Malachite]

Happy: My mom hid the candy.

Unhappy: My mom hid the candy.

[alabamagirl]

Someone bought me a bacon cheeseburger and onion rings from a fast food place    I was praising the porcelain goddess two hours later 

I feel for you. Reminds me of when I was visiting my mum and she bought me a chicken dinner from a fast food place. Really enjoyed eating it. Was incredibly, incredibly sick a few hours later.

[FalseHybridPrincess]

Got a haircut that looks decent XD

[Shantel]

Someone bought me a bacon cheeseburger and onion rings from a fast food place    I was praising the porcelain goddess two hours later 

Not fun! I always suspect that fast food places reuse cooking oil until it's rancid and that the worker bees aren't good about washing their hands following a bathroom break. Ugh...fast food places are off my list!

[FTMDiaries]

Hmmm.... on that subject:

My daughter, who has been off school with a tummy bug, is back at school today. Yay!

My other daughter is now off school with the tummy bug instead. Boo!

[Erik Ezrin]

Happy: after I came out to my niece a while ago, through whatsapp, she finally came over, and was the first person I could talk openly with about my trans feelings. Usually writing it is easy, but SAYING it is much harder. The reason why I could talk about it now was because we discussed it excessively through whatsapp at first. She was also very supportive, which made me feel great too!

Unhappy: I tried to tell my parents. Yesterday. Today. But kept pushing the deadline ("if they come over in an hour I'll tell" "I'll tell when they are both there" "I'll tell just to my dad" etc. but when the moment I set in mind was there I was like "NOPENOPENOPE okayy, I can MUCHH better tell it at another time. Yes! Much better!") I have to break that pattern if I EVER want to tell them, but have no idea how. I feel paralyzed when I try to say it or hand them the letter, which makes me feel bad about myself (besides the gender stuff. Also hating how spineless I am). I even canceled the upcoming larp event, even though I already paid. I feel >-bleeped-< about it all and weak that I cannot just say it...

[FTMDiaries]

I feel paralyzed when I try to say it or hand them the letter, which makes me feel bad about myself (besides the gender stuff. Also hating how spineless I am).

Nah, you're not spineless: this is vitally important to you, so it's only natural to feel nervous. You're only human.

Would it help if you could leave the letter somewhere obvious for them to find it, and then go out somewhere for a couple of hours to steady your nerves?

[Lauren5]

Found a way that will hopefully make the patches stick.
It's going to cost me about half of the money I have to last me a month or longer.
I need to find out where to go to find out about on campus hiring for the summer.

[Ltl89]

Well, I suppose this is more yesterday considering the time, but.....

It appears my mother lost all of my tax information.  Tax season is a bitch of enough to deal with, now I've got like 10 days left and need to do everything all at once.  Granted I have very little to my name, but knowing that my W-2 form is probablly sitting somewhere in a dumpster is not comforting.  Seriously, she hords everything and keeps random stuff; however, when you have importantt things, she throws them out.  Like, I recently got a prescription for a numbing cream for laser.  She threw that out on me  , likely out of spite.  Now, I have to go get laser tomorrow with more pain.  And today I was seraching throw her random piles of useless stuff only to find my birth certificate all crumbled and torn up within it.  It couldn't be more symbolic.

On the happy front, I seem to be getting really good feedback at work.  That's really comforting to me as I'm only a temp.  It appears that a lot of the doctors are happy with my work and are going out of there way to try and make me a permanent part of their practice.  Even nicer is the fact that these doctors are hardcore conservatives, yet they seem very supportive of a hippie >-bleeped-< such as myself.  I hope that is a sign of better things to come in my life.  There is so much uncertainty and stress that it's relly making me break down. 

[Sincerely Tegan]

Well, I suppose this is more yesterday considering the time, but.....

It appears my mother lost all of my tax information.  Tax season is a bitch of enough to deal with, now I've got like 10 days left and need to do everything all at once.  Granted I have very little to my name, but knowing that my W-2 form is probablly sitting somewhere in a dumpster is not comforting.  Seriously, she hords everything and keeps random stuff; however, when you have importantt things, she throws them out.  Like, I recently got a prescription for a numbing cream for laser.  She threw that out on me  , likely out of spite.  Now, I have to go get laser tomorrow with more pain.  And today I was seraching throw her random piles of useless stuff only to find my birth certificate all crumbled and torn up within it.  It couldn't be more symbolic.

On the happy front, I seem to be getting really good feedback at work.  That's really comforting to me as I'm only a temp.  It appears that a lot of the doctors are happy with my work and are going out of there way to try and make me a permanent part of their practice.  Even nicer is the fact that these doctors are hardcore conservatives, yet they seem very supportive of a hippie >-bleeped-< such as myself.  I hope that is a sign of better things to come in my life.  There is so much uncertainty and stress that it's relly making me break down.

LTL,
Sorry to hear about what's happening at home. Very happy to hear about how things are going at work.

Consider it this way: your mother represents your past, where you came from, whereas your work friends symbolize your future and adult life.

It kind of sounds like your past is going to need to scramble and catch up soon in order to not be left behind entirely.

In other words, get with the program, MOM!

Have a great weekend!
Cheers,
Tegan

[Sincerely Tegan]

Okay, first the good news: my wife is going to therapy. She has anger issues, and is finally willing to address said issues.  If she can really learn good coping techniques, there is a chance that we might work. If she gives up on this, we very likely won't make it.

The bad news: When I got home from my night class, I found her drunk. She seems pretty remorseful of the problems her anger issues have caused, bit still- she was drunk. I don't know what to make of that, in terms of expectations for the future. She seems to be having trouble accepting just how damaging her unhealthy anger expression can be.

The other good news: I don't know what it is, but I've really been loving my job lately.  And, over the last couple weeks, my students seem to be lining up to tell me that I'm a good teacher. It's been incredible, and I have loved every moment of it.  The thing is, I used to beat myself up because I thought I didn't want to be a teacher, that I was no good at it. Lately, I have found my full confidence. I've been good for years, but only lately have I allowed myself to enjoy that realization. The last couple weeks have been so validating at both my high school and college classes.

The other OTHER good news: I have been super-conflicted about how to feel for quite a while. It has been a long week. I have decided to really ENJOY tomorrow. I won't worry about the gender of the person in the mirror; I will simply enjoy my day.  Tomorrow, I tutor in the morning, which will be nice, as I like to feel that I'm helping people who need it (and my tutee REALLY needs it). Then I'll have a couple hours to kill- hopefully pleasantly with my wife- before our best friends come over and we all go to Los Angeles to watch my favorite monthly event, a live old-time radio style stage show called The Thrilling Adventure Hour. Tomorrow, I will enjoy myself without thinking too hard about the future.  Tomorrow, I will just enjoy the present.

Have a wonderful weekend, all!

Cheers,
Tegan

[Shantel]

Okay, first the good news: my wife is going to therapy. She has anger issues, and is finally willing to address said issues.  If she can really learn good coping techniques, there is a chance that we might work. If she gives up on this, we very likely won't make it.

The bad news: When I got home from my night class, I found her drunk. She seems pretty remorseful of the problems her anger issues have caused, bit still- she was drunk. I don't know what to make of that, in terms of expectations for the future. She seems to be having trouble accepting just how damaging her unhealthy anger expression can be.

The other good news: I don't know what it is, but I've really been loving my job lately.  And, over the last couple weeks, my students seem to be lining up to tell me that I'm a good teacher. It's been incredible, and I have loved every moment of it.  The thing is, I used to beat myself up because I thought I didn't want to be a teacher, that I was no good at it. Lately, I have found my full confidence. I've been good for years, but only lately have I allowed myself to enjoy that realization. The last couple weeks have been so validating at both my high school and college classes.

The other OTHER good news: I have been super-conflicted about how to feel for quite a while. It has been a long week. I have decided to really ENJOY tomorrow. I won't worry about the gender of the person in the mirror; I will simply enjoy my day.  Tomorrow, I tutor in the morning, which will be nice, as I like to feel that I'm helping people who need it (and my tutee REALLY needs it). Then I'll have a couple hours to kill- hopefully pleasantly with my wife- before our best friends come over and we all go to Los Angeles to watch my favorite monthly event, a live old-time radio style stage show called The Thrilling Adventure Hour. Tomorrow, I will enjoy myself without thinking too hard about the future.  Tomorrow, I will just enjoy the present.

Have a wonderful weekend, all!

Cheers,
Tegan

Learning to just be and live in the moment is the key to happiness, we can do nothing to change the past and have no control over the future, we live in the present that's why it's called "Present" because it a gift! Congrats Tegan!

[Erik Ezrin]

Unhappy: Walked around all day feeling totally >-bleeped-<, like the days before. Not being able to tell my parents... total horrible feeling.

Happy: I TOLD THEM!!! YAAYYY!!! I DID IT! HOLY CRAP!!! *happy attack*
I still feel a bit awkward about it too, because I could notice how weird it felt for them to see me as their son (and referred to me with 'child' and 'our sweet human' (lol ) instead. Also already correcting a bit when they said "girl", but not yet able to say "boy"). I understand this too, after all... I've been their daughter for 19 years. Most important was that they respected my feelings and said they would always keep loving me as their child. They also said they NEVER expected it :0 wow! I really thought they HAD TO know, but my mom totally didn't notice my obvious tomboyishness as a kid, and only the feminine things I did. It completely hit them out of the blue.
I find it difficult to see how to proceed next now. Whether to seek out a therapist asap, or wait longer, etc. etc. well, anyway, for now I am glad with their response.

[Sincerely Tegan]

Unhappy: Walked around all day feeling totally >-bleeped-<, like the days before. Not being able to tell my parents... total horrible feeling.

Happy: I TOLD THEM!!! YAAYYY!!! I DID IT! HOLY CRAP!!! *happy attack*
I still feel a bit awkward about it too, because I could notice how weird it felt for them to see me as their son (and referred to me with 'child' and 'our sweet human' (lol ) instead. Also already correcting a bit when they said "girl", but not yet able to say "boy"). I understand this too, after all... I've been their daughter for 19 years. Most important was that they respected my feelings and said they would always keep loving me as their child. They also said they NEVER expected it :0 wow! I really thought they HAD TO know, but my mom totally didn't notice my obvious tomboyishness as a kid, and only the feminine things I did. It completely hit them out of the blue.
I find it difficult to see how to proceed next now. Whether to seek out a therapist asap, or wait longer, etc. etc. well, anyway, for now I am glad with their response.

Dude, awesome!

They're in shell-shock, but their reaction sounds pretty damn positive. Congratulations- very brave of you; feel proud. Pat yourself on the back, or punch the sky, or do a happy dance or whatever. Seriously, do it. I'll wait. DO IT!

Now, as for therapy, why wait? Therapy is nothing but talking things out, so why why not dive into it if you have support (however bewildered) in your life? Why prolong things? You've got the green light, man, so it's time to GO.

I'm glad things are going well for you. Have a great weekend!

Cheers,
Tegan

[King Malachite]

Happy:  My father gave me $55.65 in change! 

Unhappy:  Only $55.64 of that can go into my top surgery fund as one of the coins was a Canadian penny so I can't use it. 

[Sincerely Tegan]

Happy:  My father gave me $55.65 in change! 

Unhappy:  Only $55.64 of that can go into my top surgery fund as one of the coins was a Canadian penny so I can't use it. 

Um... keep it for good luck?

Why does Canada produce pennies, anyway? I mean, honestly!

:-P,
Teg

[King Malachite]

Um... keep it for good luck?

Why does Canada produce pennies, anyway? I mean, honestly!

:-P,
Teg

Nah, it will just irritate me seeing that single, lonely penny not being able to join the rest of my money.  I'll probably just give it to my 6 year old nephew.  He might think it's neat.  I know I did at 6.   

On another note, Kudos for Canada having a female on their currency!

[Sincerely Tegan]

Nah, it will just irritate me seeing that single, lonely penny not being able to join the rest of my money.  I'll probably just give it to my 6 year old nephew.  He might think it's neat.  I know I did at 6.   

On another note, Kudos for Canada having a female on their currency!

You just know that kid is going to end up with that thing stuck up his nose. And of course, it'll be all you fault, Mal.

Also, I'm pretty sure Britain beat Canada to the punch on the whole female currency thing. Just sayin. They had a famous queen, or somethin'.

-Tegs

[King Malachite]

If it ends up in his nose, then he would have gotten more use out of it than me. 

I never had a Brittish coin so I wouldn't know about them.  I know here in the U.S. I don't think we have any currency with a female on it, so to see one is pretty cool.