Up and down and back up.
Dad said he'd send me some money.
Only if I called my uncle to ask him if he has openings in the stores up in the UP, and that if I didn't have a job by Wednesday and there was an opening up there, I'd take it.
He also said some other things, like that I haven't "experimented enoguh" with gender to know if transitioning is really right for me, and that I could just revert to get a job, but doesn't fully understand the dirstress it causes me, and didn't understand (but now he does) the implications for surgery (he thought it was a year on hormones, not a year full time as well.)
Some things he did say to me about my roommate and living situation has finally motivated me to do something about it, since he pretty much gave me the OK to go ahead with that. I wasn't really looking for his approval to do it, but getting it, that's encouraged me to.
He also mentioned that the Air Force may soon be lifting the ban towards transpeople enlisting, which would be great if I could only do it for a year rather than the 3 or 4. My plan was save enough to have surgery in the January-April timeframe, then move to Belgium (or elsewhere in Europe, depending where I get in) to restart my education, since trying to continue it here would be a nightmare, even if I was feeling better (have to take all 5 classes I failed and average a 3.8 on them to get my GPA back up to acceptable levels. Not to mention no major here really interests me. Looking at some degrees in British universities, many of them offered 4 year MS in Architectural and Civil Engineering, which isn't something I can find at MSU. They don't have architecture, only civil engineering, and the transportation segment only consists of roads, where I would be not happy and much prefer metrorail and airport development) it'd be tough. From what one of my Belgian friends tells me, lots of universities in Belgium are offering good scholarships and there are many jobs open for engineers, and I already know the terrain (even if it was 11 years ago) and one of the languages, and part of the other. I don't really care to be an engineer, it just seems that A+CE is the closest thing I can get to art that pays well enough, and allows me to be creative and use my vast imagination while ignoring my very little artistic talent.
