Thank you, all... I'm not sure how to explain myself here. I do have questions, mostly about myself, but I'm not sure how to ask them. I know that I've felt like something more than "just a girl" for as long as I can remember. But I almost feel that admitting myself to these feelings is going to get me the same feedback as when I tell people that I have ADD. They all say "Well, everyone has ADD a little bit." But they'll never understand that what I feel and how I think is so completely different. ADD isn't just "not being able to pay attention." If I'm not on my meds, I feel like someone else is controlling my body, making it do and say things that I don't want to say or do. I just feel like if I tell anyone what's inside my head, they'll just play it off as "Oh, well, everyone has masculine and feminine qualities." But it's not like that for me. I don't want to act like a boy. I want to be a boy. But I also want to be a girl. I finally understand that I'm somewhere between male and female, or male then female and vice versa, or both at the same time. I just don't want my feelings to be written off as "You've got a vagina and boobs. You're a girl, wear some jeans and get over it."
I don't know how to understand, or how to make it understood.
