42 realization that perhaps I can not go on in status quo. Start of Soy based HRT regimen and diet of calorie deprevation to get closer to the female body, mind you at this time I am 227lbs and semi-pro body builder at 6'1"
43 suicide attempt and immediate embrace of what shall come next.
44 whole wide world learns that I am in fact Not who I appear to be. Start of pharmaceutical HRT.
45 after 6 months of HRT I am fortunate to have ability to undergo FFS, my body now at 157lbs and height at 5'103/4", yep, I was amazed too, lol
presently 46, agency Model, still morphing into the perfection I have envisioned, perhaps asking a lot of my self, but as I have found out,
"All it takes is Everything"