You know what made me happy today?
I just had this random moment where all of a sudden my present gender situation finally really started to sink in. When I was just sitting around and thinking, all of a sudden it just occurred to me "holy crap, I really am going to be a girl. In REAL LIFE!" It's just this amazing thing to think about, it totally blows my mind. I've just become so used to relegating my transsexual thoughts to the world of fantasy, so used to sighing and thinking "but that will never happen," or "but it's just a fantasy," and feeling these kind of defeatist thoughts, thinking that it was impossible.
But now suddenly it's not. It really is happening! In real life! I'm not just going to be a guy who wishes he was a girl anymore, I really am going to be a girl!!! Wow!!! How amazing is that?
That just made me feel so happy today as that reality finally sunk in.