So... I am now posting in this thread for the first time (I think

). Lately I have had som serious doubts that I ever will be passable =/, it really makes me depressed like nothing else. I can hardly think or function normally anymore because of it.
I am flying again. Bus as a guy and therefore I had to cut my hair

(thats why it is so short in these pictures) I really hate it because I looked much better before. But I need the money for surgery so I had to do it
I cant believe that I am doing this!
This is me 5o clock in the morning and looking like hell, no makeup. and no expressions so there wont be any illusions lookswise, :

A little later during the day.

Eyes fixed up + lipgloss and blush.

I know one thing, my nose is huge and is a big obstacle for me right now

, it needs to be fixed. I got it from my mom and it looks too bold and harsh. Will fix it during 2013 though thats my goal.
FFS is also something that I will get but I am not sure when yet (its all about the money).
I am soon 8months in on HRT. But I had some minor setbacks on the way, about 5 months in I switched to gel but it didnt work for me and my t spiked so I lost alot of progress =/. Just got it back under control a month ago.
So, what can I do to make my appearance better? I mean I know how to do it with makeup but I dont want to use alot of it all the time. Some days I am just lazy.