*queue emotional dramatic music*
What made me unhappy today?
The fact that even though Im young, I still have that feeling im going to be alone. I mean I guess it can be blamed on my manic depression. Even still. Not only do i have to find a boyfriend to my standards that would want to be with me (im not the best looking 'guy' in the lgbt community.) but they would also have to understand that I am a bigendered/androgynous male.
I am one affectionate person, and I'm sick of being just a lay or being just a friend. Im not going to force myself on someone. And I see all my friends finding significant others, and yes this sounds caddy but I -KNOW- im better looking than them, and they get gorgeous significant others. I just hate being alone.. And I know im not alone in the people that care/friends field, but I want more. I want to be able to come home and be able to get in bed and snuggle up to my boyfriend and talk about our day, and go out to romantic dinners, and all that cheesy stuff. But I just don't think im good enough for anyone...
I know this is silly, childish, and way too "emo" post, and it seems like this is something thats made me unhappy for more than just today, but today its really affecting me :c