I I'm going to lose my house, maybe my job, I am never going to have enough money to cover basic transition stuff, I don't know how I am going to have enough money to live, and I am going to be a house less, that's even before you count the family and friends that I am losing and stand to lose because of my gender changing. Just feeling that my life is going down the pan and I have to just sit and watch it wash away taking my hopes and dreams with it.