What made you unhappy today? v2.0

[K Style Addiction]

My father told me i should be a pr*stitute because i'm broke and i'm a problem to him.

[Shantel]

My father told me i should be a pr*stitute because i'm broke and i'm a problem to him.

Sorry, but what a total jerk! 

[Adam (birkin)]

My father told me i should be a pr*stitute because i'm broke and i'm a problem to him.

What a jerk!  I have had similar things said about me, I know how much it hurts when it comes from someone you have to trust.

[Michelle S.]

This...



This is a post by someone in my partner's family. Since I came out, he's calmed down a bit - he used to post stuff like this a few times a day...

My partner's family has accepted me but I can't help but get so upset every time this crap pops up on my feed....

[CalmRage]

I have to be up in five hours. 

Here's to another day full of fake smiles and extreme anxiety.

self-fulfilling prophecy anyone? Also, i experienced dysphoria like i never experienced it before, mixed with confusion.

[Nero]

My father told me i should be a pr*stitute because i'm broke and i'm a problem to him.

I'm so sorry honey. I'm with the others, what a douche!
Don't listen to him.

[King Malachite]

My test froze on me two questions before I was done. Now I have two unanswered questions marked as wrong.  I emailed my professor and hope to hear from him soon.  I'm anxious.  I want him to hurry up with his response.   

[CalmRage]

Hate all the confusion. This one moment i am very sure and this next i am confused. Yet i am afraid of never being a girl body-wise. And somehow i am sometimes afraid  of feminine things (and ashamed thinking about them) and then suddenly i want them.

If i don't get help i will off myself.

Edit:

And every day i feel like i'm playing a role, acting like nothing's up. I'm so confused and yet it is clear. Everything seems hopeless at times courtesy of Confusion Inc. My feelings are heavy enough to prevent me from writing a single sentence and to give me anxiety attacks. I know i should just relax and think about this in the quiet, but somehow i can't since i so desperately want to be female body-wise, yet have quite a few contradictions and my mind is confusing me too at times.

I guess like Frank Zappa once said "the torture never stops"

[FTMDiaries]

Hate all the confusion. This one moment i am very sure and this next i am confused. Yet i am afraid of never being a girl body-wise. And somehow i am sometimes afraid  of feminine things (and ashamed thinking about them) and then suddenly i want them.

If i don't get help i will off myself.

Edit:

And every day i feel like i'm playing a role, acting like nothing's up. I'm so confused and yet it is clear. Everything seems hopeless at times courtesy of Confusion Inc. My feelings are heavy enough to prevent me from writing a single sentence and to give me anxiety attacks. I know i should just relax and think about this in the quiet, but somehow i can't since i so desperately want to be female body-wise, yet have quite a few contradictions and my mind is confusing me too at times.

I guess like Frank Zappa once said "the torture never stops"

Have you considered whether you may be perseverating about your gender issues? Not that I blame you for doing so... but as an Aspie, the more you concentrate on a particular issue, the more intense it gets until eventually you get to the point where you can't stand it. Do you have any tools you can use to break yourself out of the perseveration cycle? That could help you relax and bring your anxiety levels down, so that you can think a bit more clearly. I know you had a shaky moment with your Asperger's therapist a couple of days ago... but is there some way he can help you with your perseveration?

(For anyone unfamiliar with the autism spectrum, 'perseveration' is a type of hyper-focussing on a particular issue until it becomes all-encompassing. It's something that is quite common in people with Asperger's)

Oh, and by the way... practically every single trans* person on this planet has gone through stages where everything seems crystal clear, then everything seems confusing and frightening. It's also true that for many of us, there are a couple of things associated with our birth sex that we actually enjoy (for example, I enjoy painting my nails), which can lead to us feeling confused about whether we're doing the right thing. That's perfectly normal. In fact, it's encouraging, because it means you're giving this the serious thought it requires.

[V M]

Bad tummy    Throwing up and not making it to a proper receptacle in time    Having to clean up after said incident

[kelly_aus]

The realisation that I lost the love of my life 7 weeks ago today.. I hate Fridays.

[Shantel]

The realisation that I lost the love of my life 7 weeks ago today.. I hate Fridays.

I'm sorry Kelly, it was very sad. I would imagine that if she could speak to you that she would say that she loves you and hopes that you would move ahead with your life for her. She wouldn't want you to be so saddened that you become morose. Wishing the best in your days ahead dear!

[Nero]

Hate all the confusion. This one moment i am very sure and this next i am confused. Yet i am afraid of never being a girl body-wise. And somehow i am sometimes afraid  of feminine things (and ashamed thinking about them) and then suddenly i want them.

If i don't get help i will off myself.

Edit:

And every day i feel like i'm playing a role, acting like nothing's up. I'm so confused and yet it is clear. Everything seems hopeless at times courtesy of Confusion Inc. My feelings are heavy enough to prevent me from writing a single sentence and to give me anxiety attacks. I know i should just relax and think about this in the quiet, but somehow i can't since i so desperately want to be female body-wise, yet have quite a few contradictions and my mind is confusing me too at times.

I guess like Frank Zappa once said "the torture never stops"

Have you considered whether you may be perseverating about your gender issues? Not that I blame you for doing so... but as an Aspie, the more you concentrate on a particular issue, the more intense it gets until eventually you get to the point where you can't stand it. Do you have any tools you can use to break yourself out of the perseveration cycle? That could help you relax and bring your anxiety levels down, so that you can think a bit more clearly. I know you had a shaky moment with your Asperger's therapist a couple of days ago... but is there some way he can help you with your perseveration?

(For anyone unfamiliar with the autism spectrum, 'perseveration' is a type of hyper-focussing on a particular issue until it becomes all-encompassing. It's something that is quite common in people with Asperger's)

Hmm very interesting. I suppose I always have a 'perseveration' issue going on. Though I'm pretty sure I'm not on the autism spectrum at all. But interesting that I'm not the only one with this issue.

[CalmRage]

Have you considered whether you may be perseverating about your gender issues? Not that I blame you for doing so... but as an Aspie, the more you concentrate on a particular issue, the more intense it gets until eventually you get to the point where you can't stand it. Do you have any tools you can use to break yourself out of the perseveration cycle? That could help you relax and bring your anxiety levels down, so that you can think a bit more clearly. I know you had a shaky moment with your Asperger's therapist a couple of days ago... but is there some way he can help you with your perseveration?

(For anyone unfamiliar with the autism spectrum, 'perseveration' is a type of hyper-focussing on a particular issue until it becomes all-encompassing. It's something that is quite common in people with Asperger's)




Hmm very interesting. I suppose I always have a 'perseveration' issue going on. Though I'm pretty sure I'm not on the autism spectrum at all. But interesting that I'm not the only one with this issue.

This one moment i want to have a feminine body i can stand looking at, this next i'm so ashamed i feel like killing myself, which i attempted today. In class. I'm often asking myself, what do i have in common with other girls? I'm not imagining this, am I?

[Nero]

Have you considered whether you may be perseverating about your gender issues? Not that I blame you for doing so... but as an Aspie, the more you concentrate on a particular issue, the more intense it gets until eventually you get to the point where you can't stand it. Do you have any tools you can use to break yourself out of the perseveration cycle? That could help you relax and bring your anxiety levels down, so that you can think a bit more clearly. I know you had a shaky moment with your Asperger's therapist a couple of days ago... but is there some way he can help you with your perseveration?

(For anyone unfamiliar with the autism spectrum, 'perseveration' is a type of hyper-focussing on a particular issue until it becomes all-encompassing. It's something that is quite common in people with Asperger's)




Hmm very interesting. I suppose I always have a 'perseveration' issue going on. Though I'm pretty sure I'm not on the autism spectrum at all. But interesting that I'm not the only one with this issue.

This one moment i want to have a feminine body i can stand looking at, this next i'm so ashamed i feel like killing myself, which i attempted today. In class. I'm often asking myself, what do i have in common with other girls? I'm not imagining this, am I?

Seems pretty real to me. Where is the shame coming from - from wanting a female body? I'd say that's normal.

[Brooke777]

Not that anyone gives a s##t, but I am extremely upset because my girlfriend left me today. When I got home from work she had left me.

Anyway...yeah, that made me "unhappy today".

[King Malachite]

Idiot on Facebook wasting my time

Stupid fly in the room

My period not bleeding heavily already

Spider got away when I attempted to kill it

[Shantel]

Idiot on Facebook wasting my time

Stupid fly in the room

My period not bleeding heavily already

Spider got away when I attempted to kill it

Oh honey, I can tell that you're not having fun! ((hugs))

[King Malachite]

Oh honey, I can tell that you're not having fun! ((hugs))

-hugs- Story of my life

But there is good news.

The fly made the mistake of getting stuck in a tight space between my old radio so I sprayed it.

Well, that's one good thing at least.

Not that anyone gives a s##t, but I am extremely upset because my girlfriend left me today. When I got home from work she had left me.

Anyway...yeah, that made me "unhappy today".

-hugs-

[Adam (birkin)]

Not that anyone gives a s##t, but I am extremely upset because my girlfriend left me today. When I got home from work she had left me.

Anyway...yeah, that made me "unhappy today".

I'm sorry Brooke. Breakups are so painful.