HRT - been on T blockers for a few months , starting E in november
Electrolysis - done 2 sessions of lazer so far , still have 5 oclock shadow around mouth area
Voice- needs work to "blend in" , i'v spoken online as a girl for ages , sometime's id get clock but i'd just refer voice to being unique , and people got over it pretty fast and use right pronouns etc.
Therapists- being talken to a good specialist for 5 + months
Assorted legal stuff /Name change- Was told by pyschologist they would give me the letter everything legally to be changed when I go in for my E , $150 name change I think, got an appointment after the HRT date to see school and try to get all my degrees /year 12 cert in new name.
New clothing - I have always worn not so masculine clothes , but I honestly don't really have any fashion sense at all , my entire wardrobe is basically brown , white and black plain old shirts. I have recently being wearing woman's jeans and a t shirt and I feel comfortable wearing a nice sky blue or white jumper , it for me hides my bigger bone structure easier. So it works better then say woman's clothing's for now anyways, and I don't even see it as being any less feminine as my sister , brothers girlfriends all wear same thing.
FFS - will try 1+ year on HRT and see if I need it, I like my face , I do realize I look androgynous more towards male because of my chin, I am defiantly going to be getting trachea shave , I really don't want to go overboard, I am conflicted by wanting to blend in with already liking the face that stares back at me but at same time . Sorta worried that they will change my front face , when all I want is side on.
GRS- getting it asap , I have always hated my genitalia. I learnt from teenage years , just to never look at it ever I always look away , and hate shower mirrors because of this.
Hair- I grew my hair out since February and it is longer then my 2 sisters ( I have minor balding at front, but no one can see it with how long hair is , and I part it over ears , so it really doesn't bother me and hoping effects of hrt might help
Eye brows - I have always had amazing shaped eye brows , the girls on family have always said how they wanted them. They are bushy and I think it would help me alot to get them done with feeling more womanly but I had a very terrible experience with someone , who asked me "ohh plenty of men come in here and get them done, i'll try to make them not feminine , and I told her how I wanted them feminine and she was in utter disgust shock and "accidently" cut alot of my fringe off in process.
Coming out to loved ones (important for my transition) - Was actually a lot easier then I thought, I learnt about transgender and how it was the feeling I have felt my entire life , I was literally on the edge of suicide throughout my entire life, and doctors blamed it on social anxiety. I came out telling them the medical aspects of it and then my own life experience version and I had rough days but it was accepted pretty easy.
This has been a overwhelming experience but my life was 2 overwhelming before hand, I literally could not act like a guy and yet people didn't understand me because I was not flamboyant or anything like other guys. This for me was life or hide in my house all day long and never socialize and think negative of world grow old and lonely and depressed with the body I have .. um yeah no. Good luck with your bariatric surgery hope things go well =).
