so much I want to say but im unsure how to say it.
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I wotted yes, Dyshoria ruin sex. But, I wont decribe me as having alot of dyshoria, it kinda come or go. I generally say I dont have dyshoria for my body but for the expectation or boxes I could be put into as female who is to be a certain way. <-- those kind of thouhgt gives me dyshoria. a general thing of not being views as I want, and not feeling confortable.
I think people general are diffrent sexually so we also take dyshoria diffently to find a way who works for us.
I dont have a problem with penetration, other people would never do that, I know someguy I had sex with without a binder, and I couldnt imaginary to ever had done so myself.
But
for me what works is to try not to worry and not thinking about the pressure of outside.
If I start to worry, whatever its for me not being seen as a guy, or if it other fact than I cant enjoy myself.
I generally reminds me that its no big deal, my body might be diffrent but it dosent make me more or less.
I know sexualety is very fluent, and I think alot of cisgenders would have the same sex as me if they where in my body. alot would also have it diffrently but so is the same for trans people.
we arnt freaks we just abit diffrent like everyone ells, I simple work with what I got try make the best out of it.
having those kind of thoughts in my mind makes me a bit more relaxed, but its a working procces. The world from outside keep reminding me that im "just a trann* that im just for sexual experimenting, or a half/half freak"
this can put you down both mentally and for sex, but we have to try keep outself together and not let it take over.
