I'm pre everything, including T but my voice has always been on the deeper side to the point where I sound like a younger guy. It's still not that deep, manly voice I long for but I can easily pass (or at least confuse people) over the phone and have before but by accident.
I've always been ridiculed for my masculine qualities though so a long time ago, I got into the habit of actually raising the pitch of my voice to make it sound more feminine which is so counter-intuitive. To keep up the facade of being female, at school and out in public I always consciously raise the pitch of my voice when talking to people I don't know. When I'm around my family or close friends though, I just speak in my natural voice. I guess it's similar to when people use "phone voices" where they change the sound of their voice to sound nice over the phone.
Constantly changing the pitch of my voice like this is so stressful that I don't speak much. I'm very quiet and I always cringe when I do have to speak to strangers in my false, female voice. Always switching back and forth between pitches has also caused my voice to crack a lot so I guess in a way, I've at least achieved the sound of a guy going through puberty...
I've always been happy with the voice I was born with but I feel like it's not what it has the potential to be. I've always wanted the type of powerful male voice that I can feel resonating in my throat or chest when I speak.
