Depressed and frustrated

[SaveMeJeebus]

What a kerfuffle. Hopefully not too much hassle. May i ask what you are aiming for?

[JenSquid]

What a kerfuffle. Hopefully not too much hassle. May i ask what you are aiming for?

Kerfuffle's a neat word. ^_^ I'll know in a few days if this mess will work out cleanly or be a nightmare to unravel.

What am I aiming for? As in school, or life in general? I've gone back to school to get my Batchelor's Degree. I'm studying game programming. I've wanted to develop games nearly my entire life, so I'm excited to finally be learning the craft. Progress! It's my goal to someday make what I like to call "new old games." That is to say new games in the 1980s/90s style. I'd probably need my own studio in order to do so, but at least then I could work when I'm actually up and awake.


Rereading my last post, it kind of sounds like my sleep isn't a big problem. It is. It's not just that I'm tired all the time, or unproductive in the day, it's that it feeds my depression. I feel like I can't function in society – that I'm a complete misfit by virtue of my hours, and because of the immutability of my circadian rhythm, I'll never be able to function. It makes me feel hopeless sometimes.

[Jamie D]

Sleeplessness, chronic fatigue, and depression often go hand-in-hand.  The best thing to do is stay in contact with you department.  Open lines of communication help sort out the problems.

[LordKAT]

I've been a night person all my life. You can get a bachelors through online schooling and I've had all but one job be a night job with no real hassles.

It isn't all that big an issue and I have no desire to change it.

[SaveMeJeebus]

Kerfuffle's a neat word. ^_^ I'll know in a few days if this mess will work out cleanly or be a nightmare to unravel.

What am I aiming for? As in school, or life in general? I've gone back to school to get my Batchelor's Degree. I'm studying game programming. I've wanted to develop games nearly my entire life, so I'm excited to finally be learning the craft. Progress! It's my goal to someday make what I like to call "new old games." That is to say new games in the 1980s/90s style. I'd probably need my own studio in order to do so, but at least then I could work when I'm actually up and awake.


Rereading my last post, it kind of sounds like my sleep isn't a big problem. It is. It's not just that I'm tired all the time, or unproductive in the day, it's that it feeds my depression. I feel like I can't function in society – that I'm a complete misfit by virtue of my hours, and because of the immutability of my circadian rhythm, I'll never be able to function. It makes me feel hopeless sometimes.

You may not use it  (kidding). Let us know, aye?

I meant in school. I envy you. I would love to be part of creating games. Your goal to create "new old games" totally needs to happen, specifically for RPGs. A game doesn't need graphics to be good, just saying.

I did not think it was not a big problem. I just didn't know what to say at the time  Jamie seems to hit the nail on the head (it's an idiom).

[JenSquid]

I got a call from my school today. My aid for last spring has been reinstated, so I no longer have a balance, and I no longer have a hold on my account. Yay! ^__^
Now I can enjoy my summer — all two weeks of it. Seriously, though, I feel a lot better. It's like a great weight has been lifted. Now I can focus on other things, like relaxing, and some art I've been commissioned to do, and finally finding a therapist. I think I've found one, but I didn't want to make an appointment while I had that massive bill hover over my head. Now it's gone. ^__^

[Ltl89]

I got a call from my school today. My aid for last spring has been reinstated, so I no longer have a balance, and I no longer have a hold on my account. Yay! ^__^
Now I can enjoy my summer — all two weeks of it. Seriously, though, I feel a lot better. It's like a great weight has been lifted. Now I can focus on other things, like relaxing, and some art I've been commissioned to do, and finally finding a therapist. I think I've found one, but I didn't want to make an appointment while I had that massive bill hover over my head. Now it's gone. ^__^

Awesome!  Try to think of the next two weeks as an extended vacation.  That will make it more enjoyable.