I am beyond disturbed atm. I just opened my door for some fresh after-rain air. There is a dead robin staring up at me. On my porch. apparently hit the side of the house. A cat has apparently already been to it. This wouldn't be such a big deal, except that I am utterly terrified of any bird like creature (a side effect of my alektorophobia). I feel a terrible mix of emotions - disgust, horror, sadness. I can barely stand it. It's already been about 20 mins. My day is ruined. Right now, I am certain there is no god and if there is, it has no soul.