What are you thinking right now? 4.0

[Shantel]

LOL Well now I'm building a true future.   

Might be a good new logo!

[Darkie]

I'm so glad the storms are over.  At work we had to go into the basement because of a Tornado warning.  I decided to stay after work which ended up being a good idea because there was another tornado warning and we had to go into the basement again.  Finally home and relieved.

[King Malachite]

Might be a good new logo!

Might be!  Would sound nice with the "false past" statement

"A man with a false past building a true future."

[Shantel]

Might be!  Would sound nice with the "false past" statement

"A man with a false past building a true future."

Good one, says it like like it is!

[Tossu-sama]

Hmm... Quite interesting to realize I've been without even a single drop of alcohol for little over a year now.
It's not like it was a conscious decicision, like turning to absolutism or something. I just don't feel like drinking.
Well, better this way. Saves money and no annoying headaches and poopy aftertastes in mouth!

[Shantel]

Hmm... Quite interesting to realize I've been without even a single drop of alcohol for little over a year now.
It's not like it was a conscious decicision, like turning to absolutism or something. I just don't feel like drinking.
Well, better this way. Saves money and no annoying headaches and poopy aftertastes in mouth!

Good plan! We Nordic types are probably smart to go without and enjoy our lives. I was a maintenance level drunk for years but found that it drove my blood pressure through the roof when I went on HRT so it had to go.

[Tossu-sama]

Good plan! We Nordic types are probably smart to go without and enjoy our lives. I was a maintenance level drunk for years but found that it drove my blood pressure through the roof when I went on HRT so it had to go.

Not to talk about how big part alcohol has in all the annual celebrations... It really annoys me and most people become so irritating when they're boozed up. >_> This includes my fiancé.

I did spend the summer 2011 pretty drunk but I blame the fact that I was finally able to admit myself that I'm trans and all the emotions were just so overwhelming and maybe even scary that I tried to numb myself with alcohol. It didn't work, it just made things worse.

And also alcoholism might run in my family... My grandfather was an alcoholic and alcohol was indirectly responsible for the little accident he had at his home which lead to his death.

[Shantel]

Not to talk about how big part alcohol has in all the annual celebrations... It really annoys me and most people become so irritating when they're boozed up. >_> This includes my fiancé.

I did spend the summer 2011 pretty drunk but I blame the fact that I was finally able to admit myself that I'm trans and all the emotions were just so overwhelming and maybe even scary that I tried to numb myself with alcohol. It didn't work, it just made things worse.

And also alcoholism might run in my family... My grandfather was an alcoholic and alcohol was indirectly responsible for the little accident he had at his home which lead to his death.

It's always been a problem in my family as well and I can relate to your own trans journey because I used to self medicate for the same reasons. Glad we're both sober, congrats!

[Darkie]

Not to talk about how big part alcohol has in all the annual celebrations... It really annoys me and most people become so irritating when they're boozed up. >_> This includes my fiancé.

I did spend the summer 2011 pretty drunk but I blame the fact that I was finally able to admit myself that I'm trans and all the emotions were just so overwhelming and maybe even scary that I tried to numb myself with alcohol. It didn't work, it just made things worse.

And also alcoholism might run in my family... My grandfather was an alcoholic and alcohol was indirectly responsible for the little accident he had at his home which lead to his death.

Alcoholism runs in my family, but thankfully for me I'm a horrible lightweight.  I just drink a jack and coke and I'm good for the night.  Only had one drunken experience in my life.  Never again.  Throwing up chinese food in the street outside my house while sobbing and punching a punching bag machine because I couldn't stop my hand in time thus almost breaking my hand is something I don't want to repeat. EVAR.

[Tossu-sama]

It's always been a problem in my family as well and I can relate to your own trans journey because I used to self medicate for the same reasons. Glad we're both sober, congrats!

My grandfather was initially self-medicating himself, too. He had some form of anxiety disorder and when it happened on him the doctors didn't know how to diagnose something like that.

But I'm glad I could stop drinking the way I did. At worst I had to visit the liqour store two days in a row because I ran out of booze... It was almost embarrassing. And being so drunk that I basically passed out three weekends in a row... Ugh, never again.
I rather have fun without alcohol so I can remember the good times I've had with my friends and family.

Alcoholism runs in my family, but thankfully for me I'm a horrible lightweight.  I just drink a jack and coke and I'm good for the night.  Only had one drunken experience in my life.  Never again.  Throwing up chinese food in the street outside my house while sobbing and punching a punching bag machine because I couldn't stop my hand in time thus almost breaking my hand is something I don't want to repeat. EVAR.

I'm pretty lightweight, too but since starting T I've piled up some more weight as muscle. But I've always had bad tolerance for alcohol so it didn't really take much for me to get drunk.
I've had one hangover in my life and it was awful. Still, it wasn't enough to stop me. Once I was without alcohol for 10 months or so because I got some sort of traumas from having the panic attack of a century while I was drunk. Ironically, that attack is the only thing I remember from that evening/night... It's seriously not nice to be able to only lie on the floor and scream something about having a panic attack. Good thing my friend carried me to his car to calm down.

[Edge]

For some reason, I don't get addicted to substances. It might have something to do with not being interested in them in the first place.
My ex is an addict/alcoholic. When we were together and right after we broke up, I said he should stop drinking. They responded with "Then you can't drink either!" I don't mind not drinking since I'm not all that interested in it, but it does suck that there are people in the world who consider him consuming hundreds of dollars of alcohol in one weekend, putting his fist through the door, setting the carpet on fire, putting his hands around my throat, threatening to kill me, and other "fun" things to be the same thing as me having a cooler and watching tv. Ouch.

I wonder how people see me, if they see me for who I am, or if I will ever be seen for who I am.

[Simon]

Just got home from the hospital a little bit ago. My gf's thyroid is so swollen it's pushed her esophagus over by and inch and is down around her sternum. They did a biopsy and ultrasound today and she goes back the 5th to see what her options are. They've said they're about 99% positive it will require surgery.

With me still fighting for my disability and her going out for surgery we're in a rough spot again. Hopefully we'll stay afloat. Somehow we always manage.

Trying to stay positive about this.

[Liminal Stranger]

Geez...good luck, Simon. Let us know how everything turns out with her.

My netbook utterly destroyed this flashdrive I had Ubuntu running on, which has now become so pretentious that no level of privilege is enough to format it. At least it was cheap...there was a kernel panic and then it gave me a black screen of death when I tried to boot saying "Error Loading Operating System". I think my verbal reaction to that would have made the most hardened sailor blush.
Story is that the HDD died on me, so I needed to boot from a USB. Luckily 4 gigs (as opposed to the 8 gig pendrive that I can no longer use) is more than enough for the ISO and everything else I have on here, and I didn't even need to use a recovery program to get my files because I can directly access them. Backed it all up just in case, of course, but I'm glad that was a piece of cake.

[King Malachite]

I just need to shut down from my family until I'm ready to come out.

[Keaira]

I think I've lost a little weight. my skirt feels loose and it's a size 14. After switching to jeans I found that I had to adjust the belt one notch tighter.  I probably wouldn't be so weight conscious if I didn't have a crap load of muscle mass to drop, if clothing selections didn't start to suck at this size and if I wasn't convinced that my scales lie because I didn't gain 5 pounds back from crossing back into Indiana. If I keep going maybe I will fit my gorgeous Hell Bunny dress again.

[Simon]

Thanks guys, I'm sure she'll be alright. It's just another trial. Life is full of them.

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I'm thinking about the ocean and what I wouldn't give to drive out to Cape Hatteras and put a log in the water. Great way to clear my head. I haven't surfed in forever but one day I'm going to the beach and I'm never going to leave.

[Anna++]

I just hosted three parties in three days.  Can I be done playing hostess for a while?

[King Malachite]

Can I be done playing hostess for a while?

No

[Anna++]

No

But I'm exhausted!  And each group was messier than the last!

At least my AC is working again.  One of my friends poked at the fan blades with a pen and it started right up!

[King Malachite]

But I'm exhausted!  And each group was messier than the last!

Okay fineeee.  One break