What are you thinking right now? 4.0

[King Malachite]

Looks like you both will have to take a page out of Simon's book and make the effort to socialize and become a little more outgoing.

True.  I do get lonely and want a partner, but I kind of want to focus on top surgery before that.  Maybe when I get a job I can be a bit more social, though I do hesitate at that since I feel like I'd be lying to everyone.   That's why I find it hard to make friends at this time....or at least a big part of the reason.

[Tossu-sama]

I got a drawing project going on, that is to draw all six of my Skyrim characters. I seriously thought I'd end up procrastinating this for eternity but I have actually done 4/6 linearts already! At the same time I have challenged my skills by drawing non-human faces (Khajiit and Argonian for those interested) and they actually look pretty decent. Coloring some of them will be hard and challenging, too but hell, bring it on!

I also joined FurAffinity couple days ago even if I don't consider myself to be in the furry fandom, and I'm really liking the community there.
Seems to be pretty common in the smaller art websites.

And now that I think of it, I guess this would fit the happy thread better. XD

[Simon]

I do hesitate at that since I feel like I'd be lying to everyone.   That's why I find it hard to make friends at this time....or at least a big part of the reason.

Lying about what? Not being cis male? Then be out about being trans. I wonder if you will feel more confident about yourself when you start medical transition.

I am the opposite. I'm not lying about a thing. I am male. If anything my body lied to and betrayed me.

Must be hard going through life feeling like you're a liar though. I can't imagine.

[King Malachite]

Lying about what? Not being cis male? Then be out about being trans. I wonder if you will feel more confident about yourself when you start medical transition.

I am the opposite. I'm not lying about a thing. I am male. If anything my body lied to and betrayed me.

Must be hard going through life feeling like you're a liar though. I can't imagine.

I probably would feel more confident after starting transition but right now people see female and they will see that for a while.  I'm in no position to transition at the moment so I will be putting on a show.   It's just the fact that if I do make friends knowing that I'll have to come out to them later, I feel uneasy about that.  It would be one thing for me to not know I was trans and then have that revelation later on after making friends, but the fact that I know makes me feel like I'm leading people on.  I wish it would be easy to be out about being trans.  Plus, I plan to do my full transition in another city where I can start fresh so that's another thing.

[Adam (birkin)]

I can tell you first hand that will get easier Malachite. For ages, I felt really insecure about telling people I was male, or correcting strangers because I had such a hard time passing. Even though i know I'm a guy, for so long it felt like I was lying. Even when I was 9 months on T I felt that insecurity and feeling of "deception"...but once I began passing, that went away. Because I get called "sir" and stuff so often now, I feel very much more at ease correcting people, and I've stopped worrying in men's bathrooms and fitting rooms. Because before, everyone thought i was female so I felt I was "fighting" against that dominant perception...but now the dominant perception is I am male, so I know that the people who see me as a girl now are in the minority. I guess before I worried if I corrected them I'd have people who witnessed the event thinking "uh, but I also thought that was a woman." Now I know it'll most likely be, the people who witness it thinking "yeah, I knew that was a guy."

[androgynoid]

Watching Wendy Davis filibuster the Texas Senate with bated breath. 2 and a half more hours! I'm so excited and terrified and way too emotionally invested screw that, this deserves emotional investment!

Edit: One hour, and they appear to be filibustering the filibuster. This is so intense.

[Keaira]

Watching Wendy Davis filibuster the Texas Senate with bated breath. 2 and a half more hours! I'm so excited and terrified and way too emotionally invested screw that, this deserves emotional investment!

Edit: One hour, and they appear to be filibustering the filibuster. This is so intense.

http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2013/06/26/texas-lawmaker-filibusters-against-abortion-bill/

She gave it an amazing run though.

[King Malachite]

I can tell you first hand that will get easier Malachite. For ages, I felt really insecure about telling people I was male, or correcting strangers because I had such a hard time passing. Even though i know I'm a guy, for so long it felt like I was lying. Even when I was 9 months on T I felt that insecurity and feeling of "deception"...but once I began passing, that went away. Because I get called "sir" and stuff so often now, I feel very much more at ease correcting people, and I've stopped worrying in men's bathrooms and fitting rooms. Because before, everyone thought i was female so I felt I was "fighting" against that dominant perception...but now the dominant perception is I am male, so I know that the people who see me as a girl now are in the minority. I guess before I worried if I corrected them I'd have people who witnessed the event thinking "uh, but I also thought that was a woman." Now I know it'll most likely be, the people who witness it thinking "yeah, I knew that was a guy."

Thanks for that Caleb.    Btw how long were you on the gel before you started noticing significant changes?

I'm thinking about how I'm starting to not mind going to school without a bra on as much.

[Tossu-sama]

I thought I could dedicate my weekend for coloring all the six linearts I've done during past couple days but obviously I'm gonna go babysit some animals at my Mom and stepdad's. And of course their pc doesn't have Gimp.
Oh well, it's nice to see those furrybutts AKA cat and dog again. Been months since the last time.

[Jam]

A few weeks ago I was given a choice by my gender clinic, in regards to how long I would have to wait for a 2nd opinion for surgery. I could pay £250 and see this person within 2-4 weeks, or I could not in which case I'd have to wait between 6-8 months. Either way they needed to know tomorrow what id like to do. I wanted to pay the £250, despite the fact money is tight for me at the moment and will be for the foreseeable future, but I feel more strongly about this surgery (lower) then I did about top surgery.

Today I had the money, infact I had more then enough and I had to give it all away because my car broke. There's no way I can pay it now =[

[androgynoid]

http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2013/06/26/texas-lawmaker-filibusters-against-abortion-bill/

She gave it an amazing run though.

She did what she set out to do. When they silenced her and other female politicians, the crowd screamed for at least 20 minutes. It was glorious.

I'm just so happy.

[King Malachite]

I like seeing my top surgery fund slowly increase.  I hope I won't have to dip into it for other reasons.

[Renee]

Space balls is coming on. Might watch it since its been years since I've seen it. Its just stupid enough to be funny.

[Shantel]

Space balls is coming on. Might watch it since its been years since I've seen it. Its just stupid enough to be funny.

"Space Balls"...Really? LOL Are you sure it's not "Spacey Blonde?" 

[Renee]

"Space Balls"...Really? LOL Are you sure it's not "Spacey Blonde?" 

Hey, even with all those channels, there seems to not be much on. I'm barely watching it though if it makes you feel better. I'm reading here and a few other places while I am munching on my pizza.

[Shantel]

Hey, even with all those channels, there seems to not be much on. I'm barely watching it though if it makes you feel better. I'm reading here and a few other places while I am munching on my pizza.

hehehe I might have known!

[Adam (birkin)]

Thanks for that Caleb.    Btw how long were you on the gel before you started noticing significant changes?

Um, truth be told, I didn't experience significant changes until I started shots, which was 9 months in. If that was just my personal timeline or me not responding to the gel, I will never know...on gel, I noticed hair on my stomach and back of my thighs around 3 or 4 months, my hips shrunk around 5 months, my voice was deeper (but not male) between 6-7 months, and some chest hair came in.

On shots, the significant changes happened very quickly, but again, it could have been that 9 months was when they were going to happen anyway. Pretty much right away my voice dropped into male range, body hair thickened and coursened. I started passing (at all - but I went from entirely female to almost entirely male right away) around 10 or 11 months on T.

[Renee]

hehehe I might have known!

Well, after working all day and having to get up at 3:15, I'm not too keen on coming home and actually doing much cooking, so I heated up a chopped up hot dog for Jake and threw a pizza in the oven for myself. Now I'm eating cookies. 

[Shantel]

Why can't i be a girl NOW?!?!

Million dollar question!

[Liminal Stranger]

Apparently under all this hair I have a male hairline. When the heck did that happen?
Also this lady working at an estate sale was counting a stack of money, dropped it, and yelled "Balls!", then saw me and gasped before apologizing profusely. Then this other lady in an antiques shop saw me reading this book called "Mother Goose Tells the Truth About Middle Age" and came up to me saying "Honey, some of those stories might be a little too naughty for you," and put it someplace else. I was reading that