ur all awesome - that's really lovely of u all
Hey there Cindy
I was imprisoned in my home and then drugged and raped by a very angry man. I have no genitals after the incident--as in gone--but--
I don't do defeat, giving up and I'm actually, strangely, on the up and up, after doing some hard, but really good work in therapy. This may sound odd, but I had to 'jump' so far out of my ordinary self, into the spiritual realm, where I stayed, almost out of my body, for about a week. I really lost the plot for a while, and went temporarily mad. I reconnected, and it was hard for a while--while I tried to make sense of a world that has people that do stuff like that, but I pegged it.
I found meaning, beyond ordinary day to day meaning. Goes sorta like this: bad stuff happens, everyday. I'm not alone. A man gets raped too sometimes--so it's connected me to women, more deeply, which is absolutely beautiful! Ya know, -- it's actually made me a better person, after and over time. The perpetrator did not intend that--but if other women and war casualties can make sense of maiming, then, I'm in a good crowd.
I have found amanzing resources within to make sense of it, and I'm looking forwards to getting my replacement phallus, that I like to coin 'my bionic replacement'. It's really helped to look at the upside: the darned new one will do what I say, not vice versa
and I can be a more sensitive, responsive and connected partner. No more timing issues. No more erectile failure! This is *good* stuff.
What I'm seeking is:....*next post*
