I know, I know, my posts are always 3 feet tall! lol
Listen guys, I never wanted to start a battle with you here. I shared some pics, and said I'd share my video...
I understand that some of you may find my clothing attire or lack thereof to be ummm shall I say, inappropriate. That's fine, I won't take it personally.
For me, I will never pass my judgement on others until it's requested.
I was being slammed with messages from people all over asking about weight loss, dietary regiments, make-up, work outs, my yoga routines, and so on.
Many of them, not all, but many, seemed to lack a couple of very important things, Self-understanding, Self-acceptance, and Confidence.
They seemed to be holding themselves from acceptance or even an entire transition based off of the notion that they would not pass.
Hearing this breaks my heart.

It seriously does. I can easily get emotional over people who are in obvious pain, especially those who share a similar pain as I did.
My point is that, when you look at what I had done to my physical body to overcompensate... The years in the gym shooting Testosterone, lifting, and then living a very unhealthy lifestyle, I had kinda turned
my body into trash. Garbage in, garbage out... My high school pictures aside, you cannot tell me that I should have assumed, even when coming out, that I was going to pass as a woman let alone have the look I do now.
C'mon, I simply didn't see it happening or at least not anything soon. Can you believe that at least?
So my transition became more about accepting myself as the beautiful person I am on the inside. That helped me build confidence and ignore the bull->-bleeped-<- around me.
So, I simply didn't enjoy reading messages of people asking me how to make them look like Kim Kardashian. I reply with, "how about looking like yourself"?
Most say because they don't like the they look. I take this as low self esteem, little or no acceptance, and zero confidence.
Of course women wanna look good, we want to be fabulous and attractive, most do anyway.
But if you don't feel fulfilled in that category, don't set that as your benchmark for being a woman!
Everyone transitions differently, and we all start with different genetics.
I achieved my goal while making new ones everyday. I set the bar high for myself.
I spend about 30s hours a week swimming, spinning, and doing yoga on a very low cal diet. I've been doing it for nearly a year and a half.
I feel that in most cases, if you want it that badly, most can get to their goals if you truly sacrifice for them. That's all.
I'm not here to have people judge me, I honestly never thought that'd be a problem.
I'm truly here to help while I'm transitioning publicly as I may relocate and live a more private lifestlye in a couple of years. Until then, I'm open and I wanna help others.
There are a lot of knowledgeable people here, I figured I could offer my advice when it's requested.
I feel horrible if I've offended anyone with my video or my replies about it. Those were not my intentions.
If you guys have anymore questions for me I will be available on Facebook for the time being. Believe it or not, my video has connected with others, and they're reaching out to me.
They are in need of some advice and QNA, and I want to help them. If you come over, message me and tell me that you're from susans, I will add you as soon as I see ya.

I will leave y'all alone, I want this to be a peaceful place.
Quote from: Just Shelly on January 31, 2014, 06:04:24 PM
I never checked!! Just voiced an opinion...one that's not to favorable in the TS circles though!
Never Ever did I say your video was PORN!! Just some parts could be CLASSIFIED as possibly soft porn!
and the few times I do wear a bikini or even a dress for that matter is because I wanted to look good and yes, sexy....but I thought that was wrong for me to feel when I first went FT....something I struggled with my first year FT. I have come to find out this is why many women wear certain things...it makes us feel good about ourselves. Could VS be in existence if it relied only on the sales from men!!
and yes you look damn sexy!!
I think some of my thinking is still stuck with me thinking I or anyone trans is not allowed to look sexy....I don't believe I do this purposely but I think it shows up at times.
One minute I look at myself and say damn girl.....you can rock those skinny jeans and the next minute I'm thinking oh should I be dressing like that! Thankfully I think more in the prior and don't limit myself on dressing choices just because I am trans....I must be doing something right, I have had many compliments from women and men on how I dress.
Shelly,
I totally understand where you're coming from honey, I do, regardless if we have different definitions of the term "Soft Porn".
And Thank you for your kind complements I do appreciate them.
Quote from: innainka on January 31, 2014, 06:08:37 PM
Hey girl, quite a fantastic to see the power of truth and then the power of few tiny pills, give life and transform otherwise existence into a blooming wonderful life. I too have taken the green pill (matrix pun intended lol) and found out how deep does the rabbit hole go!!!
It isn't easy, or rather near impossible, but with a bit of love and perseverance anything is possible.
Go Girl!
PS. I did sent you a friend request via fb :-)
Lmao! You look Fab sweetie! I'm blown away by your transformation too! Look at you, you little shape-shifter you! lol
Seriously, you look amazing, you're attitude is even more impressive!
Thank you so much!
Quote from: Laurenza on February 01, 2014, 04:04:28 AM
As much as i pray for a body like yours one day, the biggest prayer for me is to have such a strong acceptance and resolve for myself as you have for you.
thats what i love about your story the most
the joy that occurs in your mind that is reflected everywhere else.
much love 
Lauren (Is that your name dear?),
I will tell that you are on the right path. Acceptance if paramount, or at least it was for me and I'd find it hard to keep my determination within my transition if I was worried about everyone else.
Secondly, I have no doubt in my mind that you can transform to another dimension. I mean look at you, you're gorgeous. You look way better than the first 3-4 months I did.
So I have no doubt that you can improve your way of life and or your look just as I did and will continue to do.
Thanks you for your support misssy!

Quote from: Keaira Raine on February 01, 2014, 04:27:36 AM
Wow Sona!!! You are like night and day. 
This month will be 3 years of HRT, fighting tooth and nail for my transition and everything that goes with it. From rejecting family to being homeless to lobbying for a transgender inclusive ENDA and Immigration reform, I think I have weathered fairly well. I mean, I'm still alive and fighting, right?
If I can go from this:


(Happy isn't he?
)
to this:



Then it was worth all the crap I've been through.
You are a doll! You are transitioning very very well! I mean it!
And ty
Quote from: Mr Hockey on February 01, 2014, 12:19:32 PM
Wow. I'm a FTM but this is truly inspirational. Great transition. 
Thank you so very much. I'm tickeled to hear people are being motiva8'd by it!

Btw, Hockey is my favorite sport! But I am a Wings fan.

Quote from: Sheala on February 02, 2014, 05:10:44 AM
Ok so i know it hasnt been that long since my last photo. however here we go now im only 2 and a half months in. what do you think?
pre

Post 2months

I'm seeing lots on improvements. Your hair looks great, and so does that smile

I have some suggestions if I may offer them to you. I can PM you if you like!? They're simple tips and tricks that can go a long way!
But for real, you very nice, very cute!
Quote from: Angélique LaCava on February 04, 2014, 12:05:08 AM
comparing how I looked 2 years ago right wen I started transitioning to now. I took the pic in the same exact spot I took it 2 years ago and its also both same exact lighting. do yall see a difference or no?

Your face is already incredibly feminine. It is. You maintain a natural feminine expression. You have a warm smile, and amazing skin complexion.
I couldn't say anything else, you look amazing!
Quote from: TiffanyT on February 04, 2014, 11:05:24 PM
I would like to be on record for pilling on the incredible Sona story and transformation. I rarely visit this thread because I get very jealous but that was an incredibly inspiring, moving and powerful story. God I needed that sort of kick in the ass. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much Tiffany! You kick your self into gear and get to work!

Get excited, and determined. Set your initial goals!!! It you know it's gonna happen, than it normally will girl!
Quote from: PrincessDayna on February 05, 2014, 11:57:40 PM
Having the seven month blues...sorta....but ya, small comparison:
pre HRT:

7 months, 2 days ago:

Double DANG Missy! You Nailed it!