I did the first step

[Pia Bianca]

His phone was off, I could not leave a message, then got out-of-office reply from e-mail, but he called back himself after he read that e-mail

I could have left a message, but I didn't want her to call back when I'm at home. I'm not out of the closet and since my SO is at home. I wrote my mobile number in the e-mail, too... but also told her that I might not be able to call freely on the phone.

Cheers to the brave!

YAY

That's actually how I setup my original appointment.  Was much easier for me than actually calling.

I like calling much more, since I'd have been able to discuss the date and time of the appointment. Since e-mail is an asyncronic mode of communication, I had to write down everything; but it's much more complicated that way. But since I hadn't no choice and didn't want to loose my courage, I chose to write an e-mail instead.

If I still have the courage tomorrow, I might try to call again.

[Theo]

I could have left a message, but I didn't want her to call back when I'm at home. I'm not out of the closet and since my SO is at home. I wrote my mobile number in the e-mail, too... but also told her that I might not be able to call freely on the phone.
YAY

I like calling much more, since I'd have been able to discuss the date and time of the appointment. Since e-mail is an asyncronic mode of communication, I had to write down everything; but it's much more complicated that way. But since I hadn't no choice and didn't want to loose my courage, I chose to write an e-mail instead.

If I still have the courage tomorrow, I might try to call again.

When I first called my therapist I barely managed to squeeze out a "suspected F64". I guess throwing the ICD-10 code out there instead of saying anything about trans or sexuality or gender also allowed me to make the call from my mobile while at work (not in the open plan space per se, but the office kitchen is still frequented by others on occasion). Independent of that convenient little part, I would not have been able to utter the words "I think I'm trans" at that stage anyway...

[Pia Bianca]

Okay... more small steps. I still have no answer to my mail and I feel like there won't be any.

But... I called again today and there is a new text on the voice machine. It tells that I have to call 5 minutes prior to the full hour to get an appointment and that the call has to be on a Mon-Thu between 9-13 or 15-18. Since it is 16:18 here right now, I can try it twice today (had to work since 8 until now and my lunch break is in the wrong bracket).

So please keep your fingers crossed that I'll be successful then.

[Pia Bianca]

Finally... I did another very small step.

I succeeded in calling the therapist today. Unfortunately she doesn't know right now if she can have another client soon. She will call me back next week. Another week to wait.

Sometimes it's really depressing...

[Pia Bianca]

Still some days left. I'm almost bursting.

I'm so sorry that I'm bothering you with my problems, but I have to tall somebody. What should I do if she doesn't have space for me in her calendar? I was so sure that I'd be in therapy soon.

[Tessa James]

PiaBianca I admire your persistence and that is what your are needing for this journey.  Your commitment to self understanding and gaining professional assistance will serve you well.  Hang on, many of us get impatient with how slow things can go!  We feature our "time lines" and measure our "growth" frequently.  You are likely to meet some challenging people and situations but keep your dreams alive and let your vision of YOU be a warm tonic for times like this.  You may wish to do some journal writing that could help in therapy?  After waiting so long in my life to transition impatience was my middle name, I get how this feels.  You are worth the wait.

[daisybelle]

I have met with and been to several appointments with the Doctor I want to come out to.... but have not done it yet.

http://freemanmedicalclinic.com/ 

She was mentioned here so I am optimistic

https://transtexas.org/index.php/component/kunena/11-health-care-providers/4597-hormone-therapy-and-doctor-care?limit=6&Itemid=0&start=18#4674

Good Luck.

D

[Pia Bianca]

She will call me back next week.

Back to start. Got an answer today. She cannot handle any more clients.

So time to start again.

PiaBianca I admire your persistence and that is what your are needing for this journey.

Yeah, that is what I need. I just don't know if it will be enough.

[Cindy]

Keep going PiaBianca,

Persistence is they key. It's the strength we need and every time we try again to take another step the stronger we get. I know from my own practice that I have no more room for a few months, no matter how many I want to help. I'm not hiding from them or putting people off, I just can't cope with the numbers, and this is just a part time job for me!!

Keep going Sis.

Cindy

[Sammy]

How about trying an online shrink then?