Pre-op TS and being nude.

[Nero]

Just want to know how other people here feel during these activities. Post-ops, please vote for how you felt before your surgery.
If you feel comfortable in doing so, please post about your feelings.
Thanks.

[Holly31]

YUCK YUCK YUCK. Ok it's not that bad. I am going for the skiny man with the nasty fat man boobies look right now. Lets just say if my shirt flew off somebody would say look man boobies.

[asiangurliee]

Just want to know how other people here feel during these activities. Post-ops, please vote for how you felt before your surgery.
If you feel comfortable in doing so, please post about your feelings.
Thanks.

nothing, not so bad =0  I don't get too upset over it.

[Kimberly]

Hrm, I would suppose "frustration" would qualify under

some discomfort

More often than not I really do not pay that much attention to the er my anatomy. (Because it is considerably less tolerable when I do.)


This said, I avoid being nude like the plague.

[Kate]

I don't mind seeing myself nude really. I like my body in an overall sense, though it has hints of masculinity I don't much like. I REALLY hate my masculine upper back for example. And the face... waaaaay too male to look at.

I don't pay much attention to the genitals. I HATE it when aroused (doesn't happen anymore thank god), but otherwise... they're just sorta THERE. Out of place, sure, but no worse than the knobby knees, upper back muscles, thicker neck, etc.

Keep in mind though I see my body as being much more feminine than masculine overall, which is why I like it. If I was 7'9" with gorilla-like body hair and house-lifting muscles... I'd be miserable

~Kate~

[Kate]

Even pre-transition, I was never able to remove my shirt in front of other men.  I had a male body then, I didn't have breasts, I was anatomically male, but still, it felt very WRONG to expose my torso in a locker room full of young men.  Somehow, I felt violated, raped...can't think of another word really.

Ah, I thought the question meant WHEN NUDE ALONE.

Me too. I can't undress in front of men. It's irrational, I know I'm a male, but it's terribly embarassing and WRONG... and felt so even as a very small child. I never, ever showered after gym in high school. Ewww! But god... parade naked in front of a couple dozen boys? NOT happening.

Women though... no problem. Not that I've had a lot of experience undressing in front of girls, lol, but there's no self-consciousness about it except when I "realize" my genitals don't match.

So undressing alone or amoungst women = Some Discomfort
Undressing in front of men = extreme psychological pain

~Kate~

[Kara]

Some discomfort.

Slight Body hair and of course, the penis, remind me of what I am not. I also try and get over my large hands and feet. Then there is the stuble and irritation from shaving always fresh on my face. I have gotten more comfortable with mirrors since resolving to fix things but any comfort that comes from them is rooted firmly in the idea of one day looking in and seeing a more feminine visage.

I do have to mention that in the last 8 months or so, I have lost close to 50 pounds so I like seeing that progress. I have always wanted to be smaller.

Also yes, I could never take my shirt off in front of a guy. Or a woman for that matter. I always figured that I was just ashamed of my figure, but then wondered why I went out of my way to cover my pecs and nipples above all.

[Keira]

I think that in undressing amongst men, social dysphoria is added to body dysphoria, making it a big goo of pain  . I never really felt that pain since I never did it and never showered with in a public shower except with a bathing suit on (at a pool or beach).

Most time, I had to wash as best I could with towelettes in the bathroom stall (again). I smelled nice at least ;-).

I never in my whole life undressed in the locker room, went to the locker room's restroom; I didn't quite understand why, I wondered if I was a prude? But, in general I was not, so I didn't get it.

I had one of the best body of any guys in all my high school, I was one of the two top athletes, yet never showed it off to anyone, It was for my track and fields performance and not for use in proving my so called manlyness...

[seldom]

I felt extreme psychological pain undressing in front of men.  It bothered me quite a bit. 
Undressing with women around was much the same.

Myself...well it really bothers me.  It is not as extreme as the previous two, but it does bother me quite a bit. 

So quite  a bit body dysphoria. 

I hated gym classes everyday in middle school and high school.  Middle school was much worse, I had constant fear.  I would NEVER shower. 
High school was bad, just not as bad as middle school. 

With myself...well I do have a high level of psychological pain, I don't like being naked, but its the only way to shave in the shower and get dressed.  Its more of I have to do this, than I really like doing this. 

[LynnER]

Honestly, when Im by myself, I am only somewhat bothered by physicality... actualy less bothered now than I used to be...  Its an anoyance, but I can survive for now....

If I had to do it infront of people... total shutdown... sorry... not happening... I used to get written up in gym class for not changeing... or atleast not changeing properly... Id sneak off to the restrooms before class started and change there very quickly... and then into another pair of jeans instead of swats or shorts...  I was not going to stand in my undies infornt of all those jerks... Lucky in HS I didnt have that problem what so ever.... I was a pickle and wearing a uniform once a week was way better than changeing and showering infront of others.

[Kimberly]

Ah, I thought the question meant WHEN NUDE ALONE.

Hrm, Yeah it seems we have two answers in this consideration.

Alone I don't like but I deal.

In the presence of others... uh, NO.

[Ms Bev]

Ah, I thought the question meant WHEN NUDE ALONE.

~Kate~

I thought the same thing.  When in front of people?  Marcy loves me nekkid, but you could not pay me enough to take off my clothes in public.......no, no, no.......won't do it.  At the beach now, it's a one-piece swimsuit.  No bare-breasted activities in public for me. 

Bev

[Terra]

Nothing, usually, and by myself. I hate showing my body right now as I tend to get alot of questions that i'd rather not try and answer. This is why I have stopped swimming and haven't even tried to tan.

[Shana A]

There's some discomfort alone, but I deal with it. There's much more if/when others are around. As a kid in school, I was always extremely uncomfortable changing in the locker room, and tried to get out of having to change into gym clothes at all since I was never picked for any teams and always ended up sitting on the bench. I never showered in the locker room. I forget which grade it was, but I'd cut gym  class so much they were going to flunk me.

zythyra

[Luc]

It doesn't really bother me. I mean, my body is nowhere near what it would be ideally, but oh well. My wife loves me despite physical "abnormalities," and it does a wonder for my self-esteem. Isn't being trans partially about seeing past the physical, after all?

Dean

[Christo]

It doesn't really bother me.

same w/me.  gonna be better after top sergery. no more bindin'  july 20 man

[rhonda13000]

Some discomfort, but this is improving over the transitional continuum.

Were it not for the BA, radical penectomy and orchiectomy, it would be intolerable.

Indeed, in the case of the latter two listed items, it would have been fatal, were it not for the excision of those parts.

[Suzy]

Honestly?  I hate it. 

[rhonda13000]

Honestly?  I hate it. 

Even so, I wish that I looked like you. 

You are much sweeter than I am, too. You're OK, girl. 

[Dennis]

Pre top surgery, I hated it. Now I can live with being totally nude. I've come to an acceptance about the bottom bits. And being shirtless is absolutely no problem.

That's alone. I felt uncomfortable undressing with women around before and never did with men around.

Dennis