Wow. Just... Wow!! Okay folks you can set the table and set the fine china because my dumb ass us about done. As hard as this world has worked to destroy me, i must be their thanksgiving and Christmas dinner all in one for the next ten years. So should be some damn good eats.
What am i talking about? Well i found out that if you where ever instatutionalize then you are auto-disqalified from being any type of law enforcement officer. And what's that mean boys and girls? That once again doing the "right thing" does zero good for you and just messes your life up. I'll explain a bit more.
When i got back from Iraq, I was depressed and suicidal. So all form of common sense went out the window and against my better judgement and the encouragement of others i did the right thing and sought help. This led me to be hospitalized for 3 days and on paxel.
I saw no difference in how i felt was given a 517 honorable discharge and still have anger issues. Thanks Uncle Sam!! So because i did the right thing I may be out of luck. So why am i ALMOST done and not completely? Because there is a small.glimmer of hope that i am clinging too.
Someone suggested that i call the police commissary that i am applying with and ask them as they would know for certain since each department is different. So I'm calling them tomorrow to know for sure.
For those who may not know by now life has not been able to play nice for a long time but I've been able to find one way or another to keep us from drowning. But heres the thing, when you are trying not to drown with your feet bound, your hands tied, a cinder block oround your waist and your blindfolded; no matter how hard you try, you still drown sometimes and that's what it looks like for me.
Me and jordon have done everything we could to survive and overcome the impossible. We've lived a nomad lufestyle since we left the army but have dought tooth and nail to keep a roof over our heads. We've battled our tg issues on top as well as the army destroying our credit. When so you look and say its too much?
Ill keep you all updated, but if this does DQ me, i am all out of ideas at this point.
Edited for profanity
