I know he's been already mentioned but it has been something that's still making me unhappy as well. I'm talking about Justin Carmichel aka JewWario. He was an online personality that reviewed foreign games that are playable on the NES. His reviews were funny and informative. But I think what should really be his legacy is the way he would interact with his fans. He always took the time to meet with them and really listened. That's probably was his best quality of all, he truly listened and never judged. Not only did he listen, he had an amazing, fantastic ability to know the right things to say to make what ever was bothering you better. This is a transcript of his advice towards someone one late night that I think sums up how wonderful he was with saying the right things that needed to be said.
""You know what, I want you all to look at me. I want you all to look at me. I want you to....cuz what I'm about to say is important. I think, I've been thinking about this a lot lately and I want you all to know this. This goes out to everybody.
You're not stupid. Ok? You're not stupid. Don't ever tell yourself that you are. You're important. What you have in your head may not mean a lot to a lot of people but its what makes you special. You are important. You mean something and you're going to go out there and you're going to do some wonderful things, but first and foremost, you're not stupid. You're not an idiot. Don't ever tell yourself that you are, and if nobody else ever tells you this, I will tell you this, I care about you. Thank you for coming to my stream today."
At one time in my life I had recently detransitioned and was miserable because of it to the point of not wanting to live. I was also very close to being homeless. I had spoken about this on a group chat and he was one of the people in the room. He IM'd me and asked me if I could SKYPE and would I mind SKYPing with him. I agreed and for an hour he patiently listened to me unload everything that had been bottled up. He let me release my pain and sadness over being forced to living a male life after close to year of finally living like I always yearned to live, as female. He listened to me and never once looked away from my eyes with an expression that never left me. It was a look that spoke loudly. It said "I understand and I hurt too because you're in pain"
After I was out of tears and words, he spoke. What he said I'm going to keep to myself if it's OK but it was something that I so needed to hear at that time. It made me feel better and made me feel like I mattered and that all was not lost. I really needed that. It was a moment in my life that I will always remember and treasure because for that moment, with how much I was in pain, I think just by listening, he saved my life. I know it sounds dramatic and made up but I swear every word it is true.
I'm not alone in these kinds of interactions with him. He did this for so many people. There's scores of stories from people that had similar meetings with him. He always had time for you no matter if he personally knew you or not. He never really got that many numbers as far as views go when you look at some other more popular personalities but those that did followed him loved him and for good reason.
It's for reasons like this why when I read online how he had killed himself. It hurt me all the way down to my core and it still hurts me. I'm not the quivering crying mess I was months ago when I first found out about his death but I still cry sometimes to this day. I'm crying as I write this now. I cry because he was beautiful. I'm still unhappy because he a person that the world doesn't have enough of and needs more of. He was a very very bright light who was there for anyone that needed him. To brighten a world that can be so dark for so many of us. Above all, he cares about people and truly loved everyone. No matter who you were and what gender you may be. I know it's may sound overly dramatic because I only spoke with him on only a few occasions but I miss him. I miss him so very much. I really wish he was still here with us.
