Sorry about this rant but I need to get this off my chest before I explode.
My mum has decided to go abroad for Xmas this year, she popped round a couple of days ago with a huge bag of Xmas food. Whilst we were chatting she went on & on about how hard it will be for my brother who's in prison right now, she finished this moaning with the line "There's no point celebrating Xmas when you have no family around, this is why i'm going away"
Please excuse me for being selfish but what the hell am I, chopped cabbage???
She refuses to use my new name even though I changed it over a year ago, she just left my Xmas card blank & that's what I feel like to her right now, a blank, a non entity, a nothing.
This set off several days of depression, it doesn't help that i've just gotten over a health scare of a huge irregular shaped lump on my throat, I hadn't told my mum about this until the medication cleared it & confirmed that it wasn't cancer as I care enough for her not to want her worried about my health (my GP said that if the lump hadn't reduced by wednesday just gone he'd have me admitted to hospital for tests).
I'm reaching the point that i'll demand that my mum uses my new name, she's had 3 years to get used to the idea of me having gender reassignment & i'm tired of making myself feel like crap just to spare her feelings.
Once again I apologise for the rant but I needed to vent somewhere
