Sorry about this rant but I need to get this off my chest before I explode.

My mum has decided to go abroad for Xmas this year, she popped round a couple of days ago with a huge bag of Xmas food. Whilst we were chatting she went on & on about how hard it will be for my brother who's in prison right now, she finished this moaning with the line "There's no point celebrating Xmas when you have no family around, this is why i'm going away"
Please excuse me for being selfish but what the hell am I, chopped cabbage???

She refuses to use my new name even though I changed it over a year ago, she just left my Xmas card blank & that's what I feel like to her right now, a blank, a non entity, a nothing.

This set off several days of depression, it doesn't help that i've just gotten over a health scare of a huge irregular shaped lump on my throat, I hadn't told my mum about this until the medication cleared it & confirmed that it wasn't cancer as I care enough for her not to want her worried about my health (my GP said that if the lump hadn't reduced by wednesday just gone he'd have me admitted to hospital for tests).

I'm reaching the point that i'll demand that my mum uses my new name, she's had 3 years to get used to the idea of me having gender reassignment & i'm tired of making myself feel like crap just to spare her feelings.

Once again I apologise for the rant but I needed to vent somewhere

Sending a hug to you, my dear. I've been wondering how you are - hadn't seen a post lately.

I'll send good thoughts your way over the holidays.

Sending hugs your way Jayne. I know exactly how you feel. My dad (closest living relative) pulled something similar on me last year.

Last Christmas I had Called my dad and step mom in the late morning to wish them a Merry Christmas. I had also asked how their morning was. The reply I got was "Great we had everyone over for brunch." Everyone being my step mothers family.
This year "everyone" is going on a cruise. Everyone except me.

Sorry for hijacking the thread.

Big squishy hug being sent your way Jayne.

Quote from: suzifrommd on December 20, 2013, 06:54:03 AM
Sending a hug to you, my dear. I've been wondering how you are - hadn't seen a post lately.

I'll send good thoughts your way over the holidays.

Thank you all for the hugs & best wishes.
I've not been on here much as i've been struggling with depression, my eczema & GTA Online, since starting HRT 3 months ago my skin has gotten much worse & I now have to wear a special body stocking in bed, hopefuly things will improve as i'm only on the lowest dose of estrogen & i'm not on blockers so there's a battle raging on inside me right now. As a result of this battle i'm sleeping for about 2hrs at a time before I wake up soaked in sweat (which makes me itch all over).
I saw my GP last week hoping to have my dosage changed but my blood tests had been messed up, they did more tests & I had a call a few days ago to say the new results are in & have been checked by my GP so he's seeing me on Monday, fingers crossed.

On the bright side I have started breast development, it's only noticable when I lean forward & look down during a cold south westerly wind but it's a start.