suicide

[Thundra]

Part of growing up is teenage angst.

And seeing as how many of you have impressed on me that you are still growing up, I thought that it would be "educational" to share you own expereinces with other people. It is an unfortunate fact that teens commit suicide in an alarming rate. They feel powerless to change themselves or the world, so no wonder.

The most important lesson in this is that you are not alone. Most of us have been to the edge at least once. You can always come back if you wish.

[Gray Seraph]

I've tried once(like I've mentioned before in my introduction), but thankfully I failed. If I'd succeeded it probably would've just looked like an accident, since that was my intention. It wasn't worth it, especially trying to convince people afterwards that I wasn't trying to kill myself. Not even my psychiatrist knows about my past suicide attempt, it's better that way though.

I'd rather not know what could've happened if I'd died that day. Or think of the pain it would've caused my family.

~Marciel

[Kate]

I can't find an applicable option, as I'll never "try" it.

But that doesn't mean I haven't seriously considered it.

~Kate~

[Pica Pica]

I once started to climb an electricity pylon, saw a public information film once gave me the idea. Seemed silly when i touched the cold metal, bought a turkish delight instead.

[rhonda13000]

Choice not listed.

I lost count years ago.

[Kaitlyn]

I've thought about it, put together imaginary plans and methods and goodbye letters in my head, and I have a few scars on my wrist... but I haven't actually tried to kill myself, technically.

[TheBattler]

I hate this topic. Olny because I know how many times I have tried and a few times I made some nice plans. But they where only plans - I have never tried - I think my plans would of worked  . It would be interesting to know who has not considered it.

Alice

[rhonda13000]

I hate this topic. Olny because I know how many times I have tried and a few times I made some nice plans. But they where only plans - I have never tried - I think my plans would of worked  . It would be interesting to know who has not considered it.

Alice

You know Alice?

Color me naive and idealistic, but I am hoping for that day in my future when such ruminations and ideations are a thing of the past.

[Buffy]

Twice.

I am not proud of that fact.

Buffy

[mavieenrose]

Pre-transition (like so many...) I often felt total despair and a desire to end it all and 3 times I found myself in my bedroom with a big glass of water and a load of paracetemol, but each time I just completely broke down in tears when I thought of the pain I'd be causing to my family and friends.

The fact that I had people in my life that I loved and who loved me saved me.  If I'd had noone I know I would not be here today and that's a very very scary thought, because I wouldn't have discovered just how wonderful life can actually be and just how much my family and friends really did love me.

My heart goes out to anyone who truly feels alone; I would like you to know that people here at Susan's care about what happens to you and want to help support you through the pain you may be feeling right now...

MVER XXX

[mikke]

Three times and I am not proud of it. I can't believe how selfish I was to keep putting everyone I knew through that even when they were trying to help me (I just ignored them).
And the truly pathetic thing is that I'm still SO easily triggered; I can't even watch a movie that has someone commit suicide without feeling suicidal myself. >_<

[rhonda13000]

Three times and I am not proud of it. I can't believe how selfish I was to keep putting everyone I knew through that even when they were trying to help me (I just ignored them).
And the truly pathetic thing is that I'm still SO easily triggered; I can't even watch a movie that has someone commit suicide without feeling suicidal myself. >_<

I know, Lane.

I know.   

You look quite handsome, by the way.

[Nigella]

should there be a vote for "considered it".

I have not tried it but have considered it perhaps on a daily basis. Today's a good day though, lol.

hugs and kisses

Nigella

[Emily Ivy]

I have thought about it a lot. And I know some people who have tried and failed, so I am scared of failing it. Actually I'm too much of a coward to try it. 

[RebeccaFog]

Once.

Fortunately, I'm an idiot and used a knife with a blade so dull I got tired of trying and went back to crying instead.

My GF banned me from carrying knives.

[cindianna_jones]

Three times here.  Actually, I believe that my family would have fared much better emotionally had I succeeded. For the issue would finally be resolved. There would be an end to this thing that they consider a daily nightmare they can't deal with.  They could much better deal with death.  I know it is sick but I firmly believe it.

For me, personally, once I had resolved my issues and could see my life moving forward and could visualize my life as a female, the feelings for suicide subsided.  I rarely think of it now.  Depression is a very difficult thing to fight for the duration of my life.  I recognize it as something that I have .... like a cold ... and that any feelings I have will pass.  They do and I move on.

If you are thinking of suicide, please realize that one of the sources for the feelings you have is the limbo you have in making a decision and moving forward with it.  Find yourself, make your choice, plan your goals and objectives, and start working on the problems you can fix. Resolve and positive action go a long way to prevent suicide.

I love my life  After twenty years, those in my family who still struggle with this have to find their own way.  I can only offer support.  I can no longer provide justification.

Cindi

[Kimberly]

I can't find an applicable option, as I'll never "try" it.

But that doesn't mean I haven't seriously considered it.

~Kate~

Yep, exactly what Kate said for myself as well; I think there is a missing option there dear Thundra.

Me, myself and I, do not 'try' to suicide.

Course, I suppose headlong into a tree might not kill me but the odds of that are pretty slim at a sufficiently high rate of speed But that, as it happens, is one of the reasons I do not drive. Too much instinct involved, not enough time for consideration and rumination. Suicide is, after all, not something to do on a whim. But that said, I reached the finale stages of contemplation but once, Mum an Dad's love for me broke me out of trying to decide how to position the blade so that when I fell on it I would not lie in my own blood fatally wounded for overly long. Not the most pleasant state that if you can avoid it after all. This said I would be far more probable to make use of a shotgun these days. But, all in all I hope I don't. I really don't want to feel my skull caving in... ya know? Hrm, I would suppose not. *sigh* never mind, I am kind of just thinking aloud. Anyway, ^{*points to Kate's post*}, I might as well say it verbatim to that...

[Sarah Louise]

I didn't answer the poll, I can admit that I have attempted suicide (I don't want to put a number on it) when I was younger, I tried in my early teens after some problems, I tried again later and in my 40's I tried to drink myself to death, but some girl friends were smart and stopped me.

As someone mention in another thread, most, "most" of the time when someone talks opening about killing themselves, they are asking for help, for someone to talk them out of it.

Now, even though I fight with periods of depression and feelings of killing myself, I find I am Unable to do it.  I value my life more now that I have transitioned.

Sarah L.

[Thundra]

should there be a vote for "considered it".

I was remiss y'all.
Three new options available.

I know that this is a touchy subject, but like most touchy subjects, being silent about it can bring shame and shame creates it's own problems. Most of us, all people, have at least considered it at some point. I believe it is part of human nature, when things just get too overwhelming.

But I have to emphasize!  You do not have to be ashamed!  Life is hard.  If we are to forgive other people, we have to learn to forgive ourselves first![/b]

[rhonda13000]

#8, several times.

the execution was in progress and interdicted one way or the other every time.