What's interesting is yesterday I heard these most beautiful song lyrics that were so refreshing to hear, they go "oh, dear, out here, everybody stumbles on fear, who cares if you're scared, everyone is on their own" and thaaat is truth. At the end we're all on deeply personal journeys. Some are lucky enough to find people who will love us despite the pain and sadness but at the end the scariest things are the ones we have to face alone.
People say "it gets better" and when people are afraid they floock to those videos and these support groups, thinking they can bury themselves in other people and hide from what's scaring them, but in the end none of those people reaally care. I mean, we do, but to an extent. I want what's best for you cuz you're a good person and deserve it, but in the end I'm going to shut off my tablet, pull out some wine, watch Netflux, text this guy I'm going out with and forget about LtL, just like the rest of the users on here.
Writing "you can do it!" is easy and feels good for the writer, but its damaging for you. Writing this is very hard for me atm. And nobody is mad at you for being scared and trying to find support, and if they are they're just stupid. But in the end...everyone is on their own, so even if you're scared, you have to grab what you want by the balls and MAKE it yours. If you do, good for you, you'll have a good life, you have buckets of potential..if you don't, really nobody will care but you, which you'll see is the way it's always been. You have everything to gain and absolutrly nithing to lose.
Okay no mire advice, haha, good luck babe!
