At 14 months in, here's my "ratings":
Self-acceptance 80%I pretty much knew that I was never going to go off of HRT ever since I started it in the first place, because to me it was the difference between night and day, between feeling emotionally brain-dead and completely alive. So accepting my gender-nonconforming status was settled pretty quickly. With that said, though, I'm still having some problems really accepting myself as actually being female. I still have a few inadequacy issues that are keeping me from fully embracing my femaleness. This will likely only jump up the final 20% once I'm actually full-time for a while, though, so there's nothing but making the big jump that can remedy it.
Self-esteem 30%I've frankly just started finding this. I'm basically full-time, and haven't been gendered male in the last two weeks straight (ever since I started wearing my hair back with dangly earrings,) even with many people who very clearly had no idea that I was trans. But I still have a VERY hard time believing that I'm really passing. I see it in the mirror, and kind of believe it, but I'm always obsessing over my flaws, and almost find it hard to believe every time I'm gendered female. But I'm starting to get to the point where I'm realizing that just because I can see my maleness doesn't mean that anyone else can. But I've still got a long way to go on this.
Coming out 90%Out to everyone important in my life. The only thing stopping this from being 100% is that I need a job as a girl first before it will really be complete.
Hair removal 80%Basically done with laser, so almost nothing grows back now. It takes about 8 weeks for even the tiniest hint of a dark shadow to start showing again. I still have a few blond facial hairs that I have to shave, but it's basically gone. I'll probably need electrolysis to finish it up.
Voice training 70%My voice passes pretty much 100% of the time, and everyone tells me it's good, but I still have a LONG way to go before I'll feel completely happy with it. Cis-women still just have so much dynamics in their voices, so much expression, where I can feel myself still subconsciously holding back, not really able to "let go" and be emotional and dynamic in the same way. Plus it still takes conscious effort to speak in a female voice that I'm happy with, even though my "natural" voice is still read as female pretty much always.
Socialisation as female 30%REALLY need to work on this. It's admittedly my fault, because I've been too scared to hang out with cis-girls and learn from them, due to my feelings of inadequacy. I feel like this is the one area where I really lack. I still really feel inadequate in terms of learning how to talk like a girl, just naturally accept my own femaleness, and really get used to the social experiences. But again, I know it's not going to come until I'm full-time.
Hormone changes 65%(This is on a purely statistical level. Supposedly you'll reach 80% of your changes by the 18-month mark, and I'm at 14 months, so math dictates this one.) In terms of how well I've feminized, I have no complaints whatsoever. I definitely have boobs, I definitely have a girl butt, my muscles have shrunk down to nothing, and I'm starting to appear female and pass even with basically no effort whatsoever. So yeah, technically I'm only 65% of the way there, and there is still a LOT more to come in the next few years, but in terms of personal happiness with my results so far, I'd put it at about 80%. I do still want more, but it's already exceeded my expectations. Especially emotionally. WOW, I feel good inside now!
Hair 50%Grr... stupid hair... I've been growing it out for FOURTEEN MONTHS now, and my bangs are still barely down to my eyebrows, and the rest of it is still barely off of my head. This is taking FOR... FREAKING... EVER!!! Plus the hair on the back of my head is still a little thin.
Wardrobe replacement 20%I'm still dressing in bland androgynous clothes, basically too scared to really expand my wardrobe and find a feminine style that works for me. This, I've basically barely even started. I REALLY need to work on it.
Future employment prospects 10%I'm unemployed right now. I was basically fired from my last job due to being trans, and fired from the one before that due to a mistake I made during a bad night of dysphoria. I'm planning on going full-time, and just starting my new job as a girl, but the prospects of hiring discrimination scare the s*** out of me. Especially since I don't have my name or gender marker legally changed yet. So I'm about as nervous as I could be in regards to my work situation. Only the fact that I seem to be passing relatively consistently is giving me some hope here. And what makes it worse is that right now I'm still not actually doing anything that I WANT to do, something that I'm passionate about and feel like is meaningful, I'm just applying for jobs as a necessity for survival. So after I do find a job, this will maybe jump up to 60% or so. After that, it will take either going back to school and getting my teaching degree, or actually accomplishing some of the writing/Youtube projects that I've been dreaming of doing for years, before I'll really feel like I'm doing something meaningful.
