QuoteI am sexually attracted to men,, but I don't like most men either.
QuoteThere were times when I wondered why I was "still" attracted to men despite all the horrible things they did to me during my childhood.
These are some fairly common attitudes amongst women. Makes you two very typical for str8 gals. Most women are perplexed by their attraction to the people that usually hurt them. It's pre-programmed, so no figuring it out. I know that if you look around and don't settle for the wrong person, you might just find a keeper out there.

Now, as for you guys here, I haven't met one of you yet that acts on here the way most guys do out in the real world. Doesn't mean you aren't real men, not at all. I have friends out in the real world that are great men. Honest, hard-working, and treat their women like gold. Unfortunately, it seems like they always pick the women that treat them like %$#&. But in my life, all too often men feel like they have to act out like guys. And it usually means that women gets hurt in the process. I do not like it, but you cannot fight nature.
Why the %&%$ is that? The really nice women pick &^^*%$#@ for a BF, and the really nice guys do the same thing with women. Some women can be just as mean as men in their own way.
I dunno. It seems like when I was younger, women were nicer and men acted more like gentlemen. Maybe we were all just hiding our true natures. But civility has certainly taken a nosedive over the last couple of decades.
I don't hate men. I just don't like guys. Men that act in a civil manner and don't disrespect women will have no issues with me. I like diversity. Men that want to be a jerk and violent, and treat women like &%$# are going to have an enemy in me. Like I said before, most people annoy the hell out of me, but I don't hate on the basis of gender or sex, more on behavior. People in general are just whacked.