I had been playing Disney's Pirates Online game for abt 7yrs as a female pirate, named Kat Heartbreaker, I LOVED the name Kat (short for Katherine), I have a fav aunt named Cathy, so that may be my attraction to it, but I also created, and played Anne (current avi name).. I was truly able to play, speak, type, emote as my inner self, and I was joyous each time! But sadly the Rat shut the game down on Talk Like A Pirate day..
So last month, when I came out to my mom, knowing she had several miscarriages, and then me.. I asked "this may be hard to answer and I'm sorry if it is,.. but if I was born a girl, what would you have named me?"
She replied, "Paula Christine, but you father nixed that idea as the other Christine he knew at the time (I'm a 50's baby) was Christine Jorgensen, the first TG girl in worldwide news, and he wasn't going to have any kid of his named after that.. "Well", I said.. "Christine, huh? .. perfect.. named after a transgendered person.. that's fitting.. as that's what I am, Mom." The rest, as they say, is a nightmare.. I've been getting used to Paula Christine, and just a few days ago, said to my therapist, that's what I'd like to be called, please.
I also really like Lisa, and Stephanie, Katie, Caitlin (derivatives of Kat), Susan is a very nice one also.. but I think that Paula Christine might be it.. my given first name is a famous apostle, and middle, named after the Angel of hopeless causes (again, very fitting) but there is -no- way to feminize that. I guess I will see if it really grows on me.. a name change will probably be my birthday present. And likely, an avi name change sooner..