I am not a big fan of pictures or mirrors, so I am terrible with selfies. I guess I just wanted some honest opinions.
At one time I was thinking this is maybe just a body image thing. 7 or 8 months ago I was 215 pounds at 6' 0" I had six pack abs, all my work outs were mostly endurance based I could run just under 6min/mile for 5-6 miles pretty easily, push 250lbs for 3 sets of 15 and row 250lbs for 3 sets of 15 as a circuit work out (the circuit portion was normally an hour of many different work-outs with no breaks) after a 4-5 mile run. Even at only 6" tall I could dunk a basketball on a standard height hoop. I started to look like what most people would call good. I was starting to have the alpha male status in some groups solely based on appearance.
HOLY CRAP the dysphoria!! I in no way enjoyed being what people started to see me as! I stopped everything. Eating right. Exercising. Just plain enjoying anything, including life. It was shortly after this that I even learned the word transgender. I had no idea that actually passing as female was possible. The depression from it has always come and gone my whole life, but never gone away. There were never attempts at my life
directly because of it, because to me it was so far fetched of an idea to go from being a girl to being a boy that it was like wishing I had wings and could fly, but I have had some rough times with things that I now see were directly associated. The weight loss from this last depressive cycle I have taken as a good thing and it has helped in the look I am hoping for, but it seems like ANY exercise makes the muscles stick out so I have just been lazy.
The reason for the rant is this, I DO NOT FAIL. I just want to know how much work is ahead of me, so please be honest. The shot with my nasty beard is so that maybe my jawline could be seen. No HRT yet. Yes, my toes are weird and long, but I like them. Yes, they have an awkward "parlor trick amount" of dexterity.

trying to show how my hips and waist look. You can kind of see where the hip bone is, I am hoping that HRT takes care of that concaved spot between my hip bone and my thighs

yeah,.... the beard is like my invisibility cloak. I shaved it off a few weeks ago and apparently it was pretty popular (sort of a social experiment into how much people noticed my looks, um... yeah, to present male, even in the least, the beard needs to stay apparently

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tried to get a straight on shot.