Confused and Scared

[Allyda]

Darlin' it's a support group, that means it's a trade, you act like you care about everyone else and they act like they care about you. Don't hate on people for having been places you haven't in life...

I have to agree with Jessica on this comment. I don't just ACT like I care, I actually DO CARE, especially after what I've been through to get to where I am today, and I'm a little offended as I believe a lot of girls here are after reading this.

As for therapists and support groups, I just recently found a new therapist whom I feel will do me good to have someone I can talk to face to face about what I've been through, and my goals which for the most part is full transition complete with VFS, and GRS after a reasonable time on hrt. So far my insurance is covering everything but I'm not above selling my house to get the money for my surgeries if it came down to it. Bottom line, my life literally depends on it. So I take all of this and my membership here on Susan's VERY seriously.

With regard to the OP, I wish you the very best with your transition. and if you feel you need to talk one on one feel free to pm me. I've lived this all my life and I am a bit older so I might have some insight on a few things that can help you. One piece of advice I can give here I remember reading someone else has already said. And that is to not let any bad experiences with support groups, or any one person talk you out of transition. The dysphoria will never go away but it will become worse as time goes by and if nothing is being done about it, it can lead you to some very dark places.

Hugs,

Ally

P.S: SatinJoy, IMO means In My Opinion. I'm older too and had to  look it up myself, lol!

[Satinjoy]

I'm a half full girl myself, but I've never attended a trans support group, maybe because of how much I hated AA/NA meetings,........ I've met a lot of women here who just seem like they're finally getting their lives together like me, and don't want to be pre-judged like we are out there in the world. Even now, we (including you, hon) are, on the whole, just a bunch of perverts with sexualized fetishistic fantasies and not worth our weight in ->-bleeped-<-e according to much of this country, especially the Bible belt. I don't believe that. I went to my 40 year high school reunion, and even though nearly every single person there was open and accepting, there was a long time born again Christian girl who, in front of everyone, asked to lay hands on me, the unspoken thought was that I have a demon that's causing me to dress like a woman! I chastised her ..........

The lack of understanding in the Christian community needs so much work.  Much of my own pain stems directly from this, and the mistranslation and misapplication of scriptures.

So sorry to hear that.  There are many Christians here on the forum who are trans and had to push through all of this.  That section of the forum can be very helpful for hurts like this one.

Very unfortunate.

I'm in AA over 30 years now LOL.  Saved my life.  Hey whatever works...

Yeah theres a big bunch of healthy in this forum, and it has helped me beyond measure.

All of that hurt and misrepresentation out there sure screws things up.  If someone knows I am a transexual they probably jump right to drag queen.  Nothing could be farther from the truth, no disrepect intended for the drags, they hurt too.  I just want to be me and be allowed to live in peace without feeling like some kind of defective product.

That demon thing is not in the Bible as applicable to trans.  She was clueless.  Clueless is just clueless.

Thank God we have Susan's to air it all out and get some help and support.

[EllieM]

What does IMO mean?  I'm old.

<BigGrin>
Not buying it, S.J. I'm old too, and In My Opinion, you aught to know what IMO means, IMHO...
</BigGrin>

[Satinjoy]

LOL.

I couldn't figure it out.   You should have seen me working out ffs and grs.  Took a while, just funny really, so innocent.

[Rachel]

Athena, keep your eyes wide open girl. Keep going to therapy and maintain your support mechanisms.

I am a Professional Engineer and I manage a department. I love what I do, where I work and my family. I am truly lucky! Oh yah, I am trans too.

When I was very young I went through some heavy stuff then the coping stuff then the denial and numb depression stuff then the I want to live stuff. It is all stuff between friends  , hugs.