I finally did it
, I told my mother I'm TS, and she took it really well. It was in the car (I guess I was still on an emotional high) on my way home from my psychiatrist today, I told her there were something I wasn't ready to tell her yet. She said "are you gay or something? "( that could mean she already knew more than I thought). I said "not quite, and told her that I've wanted nothing more than to be a girl since I was 14-15, or possibly sooner. She actual seemed very accepting (at least I hope she really was), and not upset like I thought she was going to be. I guess she loves me no matter what. This really surprised me. Since I was in the car I told her I'd talk about it more later, she seemed agreeable.
I really did make it out to be more than it really was. I feel an incredible sense of relief, nothing like I thought would happen. I almost can't believe I just said it though. I didn't even use the letter, but I might still let her read it. It helps that my mothers a very laid back person, and not really all that religious.
Suddenly I don't even feel depressed anymore, because I had the courage to finally be truthful to the most important person in my life. For the first time I really am beginning think I can begin to move forward with my life. I think my life is finally starting to look up for once.
A few months from now I'm probably going to be starting HRT, since nothing is standing in my way anymore (except getting the letter of recommendation).
To all those people still trying to work up the courage like I had been, it's not always as bad as you may think. That doesn't mean every parent is anywhere near as open minded as my mother is, a close bond with her helps.
Thanks for everyones kind words and support the past few weeks
. I honestly don't know if I could've done this with out this forum, so many like-minded people willing to help if they can. I can't believe how far I've come in these last few months. For once I'm actually happy, I finally took my life into my own hands in a positive way.
This is going to be a hard journey, but compared to my life so far it's nothing. The ultimate reward makes it all worth it.
~Marciel
