I finally did it  , I told my mother I'm TS, and she took it really well. It was in the car (I guess I was still on an emotional high) on my way home from my psychiatrist today, I told her there were something I wasn't ready to tell her yet. She said "are you gay or something? "( that could mean she already knew more than I thought). I said "not quite, and told her that I've wanted nothing more than to be a girl since I was 14-15, or possibly sooner. She actual seemed very accepting (at least I hope she really was), and not upset like I thought she was going to be. I guess she loves me no matter what. This really surprised me. Since I was in the car I told her I'd talk about it more later, she seemed agreeable.

I really did make it out to be more than it really was. I feel an incredible sense of relief, nothing like I thought would happen. I almost can't believe I just said it though. I didn't even use the letter, but I might still let her read it. It helps that my mothers a very laid back person, and not really all that religious.

Suddenly I don't even feel depressed anymore, because I had the courage to finally be truthful to the most important person in my life. For the first time I really am beginning think I can begin to move forward with my life. I think my life is finally starting to look up for once.

A few months from now I'm probably going to be starting HRT, since nothing is standing in my way anymore (except getting the letter of recommendation).

To all those people still trying to work up the courage like I had been, it's not always as bad as you may think. That doesn't mean every parent is anywhere near as open minded as my mother is, a close bond with her helps.

Thanks for everyones kind words and support the past few weeks  . I honestly don't know if I could've done this with out this forum, so many like-minded people willing to help if they can. I can't believe how far I've come in these last few months. For once I'm actually happy, I finally took my life into my own hands in a positive way.

This is going to be a hard journey, but compared to my life so far it's nothing. The ultimate reward makes it all worth it.

~Marciel

Wow thats brilliant Marciel! Half of the struggle is already over with! Well done to you

Thanks for that Jaston. I always thought this was going to be the hardest thing in the world for me to do. Now I don't have to handle my future trials alone ( though I always have these forums).


~Marciel

Woohoo! Glad things went well with your mother.  Its a good thing too, since I'm guessing you weren't the one driving 

*Marciel tells her mom*

*SWERVE, screeeeeeeeeeeech*

Yeah, that was probably not the best time to tell her(since she was driving), but she was already pulling into the driveway. It kind of slipped out a bit. If anything I'd be the more likely one to crash, if I could drive. She's pretty easygoing as far as mothers go, so that helped. In some ways I had the feeling she wouldn't really flip out.

It was still better than telling her when I got home though, since my sister is home. I'm nowhere near ready to tell my sister, at this point in time she could make things harder on me.

~Marciel

Don't worry, I don't feel safe in the car if either of my parents is driving 

Gotta love my dad watching the fireworks off the side of the road... while he is driving on a curvy road.

I'm just glad I knew my mother as well as I thought I did.
I think I was only so afraid because of all the horror stories I heard/read about coming out to parents.
It helps that I've always been really close to her.

She's also got questions for me now, so it shows I've got her interest. I still have so much to tell her though, but I already did the hard part.
I also made sure to tell her my psychiatrist didn't have anything to do with my decision.

My mother is good (maybe lucky is the better word) at driving, in car crashes she always comes out of it with causing any damage to the car.

~Marciel

Congratulations.  I'm really happy for you that it went so well. 

I'm actually a little bit surprised (since I'm usually not this impulsive) I did it today, but now I'm glad I did it. Now I can finally start my journey.

~Marciel