One step back again

[Joan]

After taking a few steps forward, I've been growing in confidence in myself recently as I've been going out without hardly getting clocked.

Today I've come out to see a museum, but before I left I couldn't get past the guy staring back in the mirror, despite changing clothes a few time. Nothing would work.

I thought I should just get past it as nothing is really different from the last time, but I stopped in a convenience store on the way and some guy said 'that's a man!' and I just can't get past that now today.

I guess passing and being seen as the gender that I feel inside is very important for me. More than anything I just want a quiet life lol

Slowly grown confidence can be a fragile thing...time to go home today, regroup and try and work out what went wrong in preparation for the next time.

[HoneyStrums]

You would of passed stage one. Some guy saw a woman (He Liked), Stage two goes for a closer inspection. If you passed stage two he would of spoke to you.

I am asuming hes about your age ish.

And im sorry it gets to you.

[Ms Grace]

So sorry to hear that you had that experience, Joan. I thought they were more circumspect and polite than that in Japan...

[Joan]

Thanks to you both

I stopped in a drugstore along the way where nobody seemed to stare, came home and looking in the mirror I'm wondering what I was worrying about.

Grace, yes usually nobody's usually that direct about things but I guess exceptions prove the rule. My luck to run into him today.

Back on the horse next week for the next visit to the gender clinic!