No. I don't want to be a guy again. Make it stop.

[suzifrommd]

At the insistence of my surgeon, as of yesterday, I stopped all hormones and spiro. Within days, my T-factories will be at full steam, filling my system with he-juice and shifting my transition into reverse. I am now headed in the wrong direction, slowly becoming once again part of that sex that brought the world pick-up lines and nuclear weapons.

I woke up this morning with a feeling like something was missing - like some friend upon whom I could depend had suddenly vanished.

[JoanneB]

"Surgeon" sounds like a temporary reason to stop, yes?

If so, It is temporary   

[Jill F]

Don't worry.  It's just temporary.  You'll have the rest of your life to feminize without the cojonitas cramping your style.  Chances are that they will not recover 100% in such a short time anyway.  Just remember, in order to make an omelette you have to break some eggs.  Or in our case, huevos.

[Ms Grace]

I'm sure not looking forward to that moment myself. Good news is it won't reverse you very much (physically) at all. Hope you are back on the she-juice soon enough!

[ZoeM]

I'll be joining you as of tomorrow morning, Suzi. (I've preemptively taken to calling it my mini-pause. :/ )

My sympathies.

[mrs izzy]

Suzi and Zoe just keep the eye on the prize and these next few weeks will vanish into the good night.

I myself had very little reaction. I did feel a emptiness but that I found was more from my mind settling knowing the transition end was near.

Relax, breathe.

Isabell

[suzifrommd]

Thanks for the encouraging words, everyone.

It's been a tough few days. I've been irritable and cranky for no seeming reason. Yes, I know it's temporary, but I'm not sure how I'm going to get through the next month without making enemies.

[Beverly]

Perhaps tail off rather than stopping cold?

As an expensive one-off, try and get Zoladex or Decapeptyl on a 30 day depot. You will need an AA for the first two weeks but after that you will have no more T production for the rest of the month

[suzifrommd]

Perhaps tail off rather than stopping cold?

As an expensive one-off, try and get Zoladex or Decapeptyl on a 30 day depot. You will need an AA for the first two weeks but after that you will have no more T production for the rest of the month

My surgeon has completely precluded use of anything.

[Beverly]

My surgeon has completely precluded use of anything.

Decapeptyl is a GnRH analogue and is routinely prescribed pre-surgery in the UK as the patient can stay on it right through surgery. After an initial flare it virtually shuts down all endogenous T and E production.  I know people here in the UK that self-medded with spiro and the surgeon moved them off it and on to Zoladex immediately prior to surgery.

It works and is proven to be safe.

[Hikari]

I totally understand your feelings here, when I swapped from spiro to bicalutamide during the few days before bicalutamide stopped it again, I nearly had a panic attack from how it felt and I was still on estradiol the whole time.

Don't worry about enemies I certainly forgive whatever you say during this difficult time.

[suzifrommd]

Don't worry about enemies I certainly forgive whatever you say during this difficult time.

Thanks. Too bad I can't expect the same from my co-workers and students.

[suzifrommd]

Decapeptyl is a GnRH analogue and is routinely prescribed pre-surgery in the UK as the patient can stay on it right through surgery. After an initial flare it virtually shuts down all endogenous T and E production.  I know people here in the UK that self-medded with spiro and the surgeon moved them off it and on to Zoladex immediately prior to surgery.

It works and is proven to be safe.

I actually looked it up. None of the references mentioned any uses as an anti-androgen. Sounds like an off-label use.

[Beverly]

I actually looked it up. None of the references mentioned any uses as an anti-androgen. Sounds like an off-label use.

Of course it is an off-label use. So is what you are doing with spiro and HRT.