At the insistence of my surgeon, as of yesterday, I stopped all hormones and spiro. Within days, my T-factories will be at full steam, filling my system with he-juice and shifting my transition into reverse. I am now headed in the wrong direction, slowly becoming once again part of that sex that brought the world pick-up lines and nuclear weapons.

I woke up this morning with a feeling like something was missing - like some friend upon whom I could depend had suddenly vanished.

"Surgeon" sounds like a temporary reason to stop, yes?

If so, It is temporary   

Don't worry.  It's just temporary.  You'll have the rest of your life to feminize without the cojonitas cramping your style.  Chances are that they will not recover 100% in such a short time anyway.  Just remember, in order to make an omelette you have to break some eggs.  Or in our case, huevos.

I'm sure not looking forward to that moment myself. Good news is it won't reverse you very much (physically) at all. Hope you are back on the she-juice soon enough!

I'll be joining you as of tomorrow morning, Suzi. (I've preemptively taken to calling it my mini-pause. :/ )

My sympathies.

Suzi and Zoe just keep the eye on the prize and these next few weeks will vanish into the good night.

I myself had very little reaction. I did feel a emptiness but that I found was more from my mind settling knowing the transition end was near.

Relax, breathe.

Isabell

Thanks for the encouraging words, everyone.

It's been a tough few days. I've been irritable and cranky for no seeming reason. Yes, I know it's temporary, but I'm not sure how I'm going to get through the next month without making enemies.

Perhaps tail off rather than stopping cold?

As an expensive one-off, try and get Zoladex or Decapeptyl on a 30 day depot. You will need an AA for the first two weeks but after that you will have no more T production for the rest of the month

Quote from: vukapg on May 22, 2014, 07:18:33 AM
Perhaps tail off rather than stopping cold?

As an expensive one-off, try and get Zoladex or Decapeptyl on a 30 day depot. You will need an AA for the first two weeks but after that you will have no more T production for the rest of the month

My surgeon has completely precluded use of anything.

Quote from: suzifrommd on May 22, 2014, 07:39:56 AM
My surgeon has completely precluded use of anything.

Decapeptyl is a GnRH analogue and is routinely prescribed pre-surgery in the UK as the patient can stay on it right through surgery. After an initial flare it virtually shuts down all endogenous T and E production.  I know people here in the UK that self-medded with spiro and the surgeon moved them off it and on to Zoladex immediately prior to surgery.

It works and is proven to be safe.

I totally understand your feelings here, when I swapped from spiro to bicalutamide during the few days before bicalutamide stopped it again, I nearly had a panic attack from how it felt and I was still on estradiol the whole time.

Don't worry about enemies I certainly forgive whatever you say during this difficult time.

Quote from: Hikari on May 22, 2014, 08:16:34 AM
Don't worry about enemies I certainly forgive whatever you say during this difficult time.

Thanks. Too bad I can't expect the same from my co-workers and students.

Quote from: vukapg on May 22, 2014, 07:43:41 AM
Decapeptyl is a GnRH analogue and is routinely prescribed pre-surgery in the UK as the patient can stay on it right through surgery. After an initial flare it virtually shuts down all endogenous T and E production.  I know people here in the UK that self-medded with spiro and the surgeon moved them off it and on to Zoladex immediately prior to surgery.

It works and is proven to be safe.

I actually looked it up. None of the references mentioned any uses as an anti-androgen. Sounds like an off-label use.

Quote from: suzifrommd on May 22, 2014, 10:34:58 AM
I actually looked it up. None of the references mentioned any uses as an anti-androgen. Sounds like an off-label use.

Of course it is an off-label use. So is what you are doing with spiro and HRT.