What causes your disphoria to spike?

[ChelseaAnn]

Just curious as to what people are experiencing. So, what causes your disphoria to flare up?
put your status (mtf, ftm, etc) too

Me, mtf. My spikes are caused by going in the pool. In regular clothing, I can wear panties and a bra underneath, but not being able to wear the swimsuit bugs me.
Also, when my wig is giving me a hard time... Makes me really want my own long hair

[HoneyStrums]

M2F

Having to shave to leave my house for less then 5 minuets.
And bodycon clothes i cant wear or have to accessories to hide.... grr
basicaly any extra effort i feel i need to make in order to consider myself prsentable, that a cis girl wouldnt need to do.

[FTMDiaries]

It used to be being misgendered, but thankfully testosterone has taken care of that little problem.

For me as a mid-transition FtM, my biggest spikes are caused by my hips. I have what my mother rather unkindly referred to as 'child-bearing hips' and although I work out every day to reduce their size, there's still too much female-pattern fat there for my liking and my clothes just don't hang right.

I'm hoping that I'll lose them within the next year, thanks to testosterone & regular gym attendance.

[suzifrommd]

Mirrors.

[LordKAT]

Mirrors.

Yup! Yet I have a MTF friend who feels quite the opposite about them.

[immortal gypsy]

MTF

My work uniform to big on me and very male

[Edge]

FtM. My boobs and my hips.

[Natkat]

people noticing my wide hips really bugs me.

[MbutF]

Watching women walk by, past me.

[Greeneyedrebel]

Thankfully I have little hip development bone wise. But boobs.....they just need to go. Yesterday would be good. The week before even better...ya know?

Mirrors...catching my reflection and seeing a profile or shape that isn't what is in my head.

I am reliably 'sirred' from the back....have been for a long time. (Thanks for those slim hips and shoulders the size of my dad's...even if he was a little guy...) But that moment when I turn around and the person "corrects" themself. Come on T....work your magic.

[Will]

MtF here. Physically, seeing face and body hair when I'm trying to present as female is distressing. Especially so when I've tried to shave and cover facial hair only to have it clearly return within hours.
Emotionally, I can get pretty dysphoric when I think about the childhood I won't get to experience and the worry I know my transition causes for people I care about.

[Chula]

It's usually a combination of things - being it situations where I have to present as conventionally male for any length of time, and feeling envious in the company of certain women.  Also body issues, such as going more than a few days without shaving my arms and legs, and seeing hairs on my hands and wrists.  The loss of my hair in my thirties wasn't great, but I'm resigned to hats and wigs when necessary. 

I think it may be age related as well, as it's really started to hit me in my late forties, and I now feel it's too late to do much about it.  When it's bad I'll treat myself to a new dress and a bottle of wine, or spend a couple of hours in the bath shaving everything. 

I'm a male-bodied female btw, in case that isn't apparent from the above.  Not transitioning as such, just a hybrid!

[E-Brennan]

Watching women walk by, past me.

Yup.  Or seeing them on TV.  Or hearing them talk in an adjacent office or on the radio.  Or just thinking about being one and how unrealistic and unfair that is. 

[Umiko]

MTF. the slightest smells spike my dysphoria. i have heightened senses especially when it comes to smells.

[Rayne]

I can't deny any longer that I have dysphoria, fortunately though it's not as bad as many peoples.

In general topics like the "I feel all soft and squishy" topic in MtF transs forum can instigate it. I had an episode of worse depression the day before yesterday... or I suppose the night. I always have the worse episodes at night. That ensures I can't call for help. It'l be 10 pm to midnight, and I feel it coming on, then it hits too late to call anyone and talk, leaving me stranded and alone desperately wanting to talk to someone. Fortunately the last one wasn't quite that bad. I don't get out much but If I get stuck around people talking vehemently about very masculine topics, that kinda makes it worse. And even in family events it sometimes gets weird to my family why I am inside with the girls not outside with the boys talking about how they fixed the truck AC or the superbowl. It makes it harder if I have to sit there feeling so out of place. Fortunately I'm ignored and left alone to moap wait tiill I can go be with the girls without anyone feeling odd. Or getting an odd look walking around from a grown up because we are having a family barbeque and I'm sitting there with a small bouquet of flowers between my fingers smelling them and admiring them. When kids look at me or just call me weird for that it doesn't bug me unless an adult then turns to look at me and gives me an odd look.

[Rachel]

Triggers

Stylish cloths I like,
Beautiful woman and their body geometry
Some commercials.

Transkids,
beautiful trans woman
regret and jealousy

Programs, seminars and in-depth discussions on incest, physical abuse and beatings and sexual abuse.

[Jill F]

Showering.

[Hex]

Cismales, mirrors, my hips and moobs. My binder not making everything flat enough for me.

[Ginny]

MTF
Mirror - In regards to me not being able to shave a few days before a session. Blech, facial hair
Lots of primer and concealer those days.

[Rayne]

MTF
Mirror - In regards to me not being able to shave a few days before a session. Blech, facial hair
Lots of primer and concealer those days.

Yes!~ Body hair too. I just feel dirty if I'm hairy. Being smooth and with shade legs arms and armpits, despite my arms not being very hairy, help me feel less self-conscious.

Feeling hairy or leg-stubble / armpit stubble... just....ew. Hair may not be mad on other guys, but I just can't feel clean while hairy.