As another baby post-op (2 wks), my first reaction on seeing the new downstairs was, "Oh my God, what a mess....!" However, shortly after that, when I got to do my first dilation alone and saw my body in the little mirror from the bottom up, including my now considerably larger breasts, I felt so happy that hot tears just started streaming from my eyes. It was the first time in my life that I have seen myself pretty totally as a woman and having waited so long for this moment it was pure, unmitigated joy.
As the days have gone by, so far enjoying a totally trouble free and odourless recovery, that joy has been pretty constant and I even quite enjoy my dilation sessions which are still a moment of discovery of my new body. This will no doubt wear off over time as the amount of time it all requires is quite daunting, especially when breast massages are added to the mix, but for now it is pretty well all pleasure.
Hugs
Donna