Hair Embarassment

[Wild Flower]

I'm embarrass that my hair turn brassy brown after mixing hydrogen peroxide and alcohol (weird combo but I thought it would make it look different). I receive compliments but as the week continue it turn more orange like I'm a leprechaun. I added gel to darken it, but it looks goofy to me. I carry myself with more confidence than usual to overcome this, but I know it looks gay as hell. I also polarize some people, and made some friendships stronger (strange as that sounds). Girls are flirting with me more (guys give the stink eye). I also started tanning my skin more, but that's different issue in itself.

People also treat me as if I am younger. I became more confident (because I pretend to think I look good), till I get a toner.

My issue is I feel like a joke walking around. Do you think the way I am reacting is the only way?