7 weeks post-op.
Ever since the 6th week, I seem to have all my energy back. I feel like the way I did before surgery. Yesterday I hiked for 6 miles, as much as I did before surgery without any problems. My leg muscles were a little bit sore afterwards, but that is because the lack of exercise all that time. Nothing problematic so far. I also can move around without any problems. It is remarkable how normal the neo vag has become. It feels like any other part of my body, I don't notice it and it doesn't hurt nor does it feel sore anymore.
As for healing, the area is completely healed on the outside, besides red scars. I didn't need the silver nitrate, it started to heal on it's own. Most swelling has gone so far, and week by week I noticed how the neo vag retracted into my body more and more. I might have some minor aesthetic surgery, but it isn't really needed the way it functions.
I even had my first test drive with my boyfriend. I don't really care about sex actually, but I love the fact that a guy wants me, calls me a woman and acknowledges me. So I am willing to give what he wants. Being treated as a woman and feeling loved, satisfies me more than any orgasm can ever do. I also love to share my body with him, and what is wrong with that? In return I can fall asleep in his strong arms, feeling safe and like myself, a woman who is cared for. Maybe one day I will enjoy sex as well, but that day seems far away to me right now. I rather enjoy the psychological and emotional aspect of it, the idea of being loved and everything romantic around it. Like: candles, music, drinking, laughing, teasing, being together, being treated as a woman and not feeling alone. Been alone for 10+ years, I finally feel I start to enjoy life! I deserve to be happy as well, and I will.
If you would ask me 5 years ago, that I would have surgery, have a boyfriend be intimate within 5 years from then, I would not have believed it. But that is exactly what happened. The way I live right now is light years away from how I lived 5 years ago, on the day I took my first estrogen tablet. It took patience, discipline and inner strength to get where I am today. It was so worth it. All of it.
