Trigger warning; I am a mistake

[Athena]

Some times sending a hug can do wonders.

Speaking of which Hugs

[Jess42]

I feel like Susan's is the only place I can feel safe. I love that everybody accepts each other and does everything to help each other and I hate that I haven't got the strength to help others as much as I want to. I'll do my best to offer advice and support though. I'm struggling a lot and things are bad, I'm battling to find strength to continue.

Don't worry so much about anyone else right now. Worry about yourself. When you do find a better place then help or provide guidance. But right now you need love and you have it. You need to feel like you belong and you do. You need to feel normal and you are. You need acceptance of yourself and a realization that you are important in the scheme of things and you are. You need to feel kinship and unconditional friendships, well you got them.

You are safe here. You belong. You are important. But let's work on getting you felling better you give back. Until you get the strength back let's worry about Alexi OK? You are important and you are loved. You are not a mistake and are here for a reason. And I and everyone else will do what we can to help you realize that. I really worry and I am sure everyone else does to. Every sister or brother we lose hurts. And I actually lose a little bit of myself. So I am always here for you OK. You wanna' cuss and let it all out. PM me. You wanna' trash being trans and whatever you wanna' say, PM me and say whatever. That doesn't trigger me and right now it is about Alexi. Not me. Just we are here for you OK? Lean on me whenever you need to. I find nothing offensive. We just want you to at the very least feel comfortable with yourself. The very best, happy with yourself.

[MelissaAnn]

Don't worry sweetie that's what were all here for someone to lean on in times of need, you will get there and at that time, you'll be able to help other people out to because you have been through it. It just takes time. Just relax here very much accepted here. You're very much wanted here. We all care about you and wish nothing but the best for you. Like I said early on, one step at a time and try to keep your head held high.

Much love,

Melissa Ann

[adrian]

I feel like Susan's is the only place I can feel safe. I love that everybody accepts each other and does everything to help each other and I hate that I haven't got the strength to help others as much as I want to. I'll do my best to offer advice and support though. I'm struggling a lot and things are bad, I'm battling to find strength to continue.

Hey there

there's a time for giving and for taking. Right now it's your time to take, and that's ok! We're a big and strong community and that's exactly what it's for.

For me the reward currently is that you continue to post here and check in regularly!

Hugs!

[Alexi]

I'm trying to hold on but I don't feel I can any more. I'm trying so hard but there's no other choice no matter how much I try.

[Alexi]

I've lost hope. Nobody is going to call or send a text message. Nobody is going to think I lost the strength to continue.

[Tessa James]

Alexi Honey please see that there are people here from literally around the world that are sending you messages of concern, support and love.  We want you to hang on for yourself and for all of us too.  We want you to laugh and live in the daylight with your sisters and brothers here and everywhere. 

Yes there is pain and hurt and you have turned that around before.  We really have unlimited potential and we want to help you help yourself.

Come on girl talk to us!

[adrian]

Alexi, please let us know you are still around.

[Alexi]

I'm still here. I'm feeling tired and restless but fell asleep in my duvet on the sofa. I wish I knew what else to say but I don't.

[adrian]

Glad you are still here! <3
I know I'm just repeating myself and others, but please reach out to someone -- one of the hotlines posted here or an emergency room. Do it for us if you cannot do it for yourself. We care about you!

[Alexi]

I'm struggling to keep my head above water.

[Jill F]

I wish I could hug you and tell you how wonderful you are in person, but this will have to do for now.

You are still here, and that speaks volumes.   If you are at the end of your rope, please tie a knot and make that call.   You don't need to suffer.  I was there once upon a time two years ago, and thanks to medical professionals I am here today, and I am happy.   Life is precious and awesome for me now and it can be for you as well.   

Please pick up the phone.  It's time to make some changes for the better.

Love and hugs,
Jill

[Alexi]

I'm trying to keep going but it seems to be getting harder and harder and it doesn't feel like I'll be able able to cope. I'm so frightened and all I want to do is cry. I don't know what to do any more. I want to scream and I want to end the pain so much. I'm not a wonderful person. I wish I could sleep and not wake up.

[mrs izzy]

But as we talked before. You are a wonderful person.

You need to regroup in things i your life.

If you feel lost its time to write down your plan/goals.

Then answer these with how they can be done.

Start over or do a reset (ctrl-alt-delete) then do it day at a time.

work on your plans and the goal.

We are here, see your therapist or doctor.

Hugs

[Alexi]

Visiting Susan's is the only place I feel safe.

[mrs izzy]

Now take that and find ways to apply that strength and safe feeling in your everyday life.

Hugs

[BunnyBee]

Your comments take me back in a very visceral way to how I felt not so long ago.  I meant even the words you use are the same ones I used.  The easiest thing would have been to succumb, and I wanted to, just to find relief.  But if I had done that I would have missed out on some of the most amazing moments of my life, truly too many to name, and I never would have experienced my miracle metamorphosis into a happy-by-default person, which was an impossible outcome, and more shockingly, the healing that resulted in my becoming one of the most emotionally resilient people I know, I was such a fragile wreck.  Getting through those times made me a very strong, very happy person.

It's a such a grim moment and you're stuck in it, but if you can just hold on...

You will be grateful later.

[Sincerely Tegan]

Visiting Susan's is the only place I feel safe.

Alexi,

Please see that you do not want to die. If you did, you'd be busy doing it right now instead of visiting Susan's.

No, you don't want to die; you want to live as yourself, and that is an incredibly noble goal. Wouldn't you like to stick around and see that goal to completion? Susan's is a great place not only for support, but also inspiration. Look at the changes, look at the successes, and look at the fact that life does go on, and it does get better. We all start from a place of unsureness to some degree, but that doesn't have to last.

You can do this, you got this, but you need to stick around. Medals are only awarded to those who finish, so keep on trucking along no matter how tired your legs yet. We are all right beside you, girl.

Wishing you hope and peace, ☺️
Tegan

[Alexi]

I'm hurting a lot. I'm still trying to feel comfortable with myself but I'm hurting so much. Everything is hurting.

[Sincerely Tegan]

I'm hurting a lot. I'm still trying to feel comfortable with myself but I'm hurting so much. Everything is hurting.

Alexi,
if you need somebody to pour out to, PM me.  I'd like to help if I can.

Hugs,
Teg