Alright, I feel I can now confidently post these now.
So Yesterday 2/24/15 I went out in "girl mode" as myself for the first time, primarily to do errands, get blood drawn, hang out at the mall and all that fun stuff.
Hung with a girlfriend who is also trans and before I left I took notice of my body in the bathroom of the Gay and Lesbian Center in L.A. and for the first time ever, I could see a female body there.
My body has really given me confidence to go forth and do this. I really feel like a lady now despite the mental blocks I'm trying to fight.
I naturally was afraid of what people were going to think of me and I DID get stares on all the buses I took and I took a lot of them.
But here is where the crazy stuff happened: instead of being scared and worried about what they thought, when they stared, I just got PISSED! I had like no worries or fear at all. I'm like "CAN I HELP YOU!?!" I was worried so much of the fear, but what actually happened was that I felt none of that at all, just being annoyed and pissed at these freaking people looking.
So I went to the mall afterward with my friend and I went to the Ladies bathroom and had a surprisingly "normal" time passing. My face needs work, but my body is REALLY saving my ass in passing more. You saw the picture.
A lot of people were very nice and accepting when I went to a few stores. It really shows the acceptance within the age gap of people. The older people were more prone to staring than the ones my age and younger but instead of stares, they smiled.
That was a very great experience there.
Also got my eyebrows trimmed. That... Was an experience.
Look at these pictures!
But yeah, first "official day" you can say and so far so good.
This is the current look of myself with the new eyebrows and wanted to ask overall how my face looks.
I know I feel I pass in body, but my face has always bothered me for years. Thanks ladies:
- Trini
