Wellllll I told them and got the responses that I thought I'd get although not what I wanted. First my fiance. I didn't expect her to want to marry a woman when she thought she was engaged to a man. She accepts me for who I am and is extremely happy that I accept myself and had the courage to tell her. Unfortunately like I said before, she cannot bring herself to marry a woman and I completely understand. However, we will remain great friends because we have such a great relationship. It just wont be romantic anymore and if that's how I have to keep her in my life then that is ok. Now for my mom. I told her and there were just a little water works nothing crazy followed by "I kinda knew since you were young" and my reply was why the hell didn't you enlighten me lol JK I didn't say that, but she did say that I did seem different as a child and that she wanted me to come to her if there was actually something to tell her, which I can respect. SO she is really happy for me and wants to re-name me!!!! How exciting!!!! So both of them are extremely supporting of me. My fiance and I have already started discussing clothing, makeup, shaving legs, etc lol So I think we will continue to grow our relationship, just in different ways. Now that I can be who I truly am around my ex-fiance, my urge to transition has surged tremendously. The best part is, now that she knows who I am and I know that she cannot see herself with me(yes bitter sweet), I can now make the most anticipated decision which is to get surgery to transition or HRT. I have decided HRT since I don't have to worry about how she would feel about my genitals being different. I am sooooooooo excited to talk to my therapist this week and see when I can start!!!!!!! Thank you for all of your support. I can finally express who I am and it feels great. No more being caged up when at home.
