Redhot,
I keep telling peopl this and you are no exception: There is no wrong way to be trans, or to experience dysphoria. For some people, it's a drawn-out, agonizing pain. For others, it's just a discomfort that comes and goes-or, isn't bad at all unless they're around others, or anything else really. For some, it's just a matter of which body they'd prefer. I feel like so many of us fall prey to this foolish idea that in order to be trans, someone must know from the day they were born, must constantly think about changing their body, must be suicidal before they consider transitioning, must pass, and must ALWAYS be stereotypically "feminine". If you did transition, for example, going to the gym and exercising is something you could still do. Manly pursuits and womanly pursuits-the distinction is all in your head. The sooner you start looking at things in terms of what you want, independent of what people are telling you to be, the sooner you will find some good answers.
I am going to say this: Cis people don't want to have a body belonging to the opposite sex. If you'd prefer to have a female body (and prefer is as strong as it needs to be), you are most likely a trans woman. What you do about that is absolutely up to you, and again, remember: There is no wrong way to be trans! You can choose to wear whatever you want, have or not have whatever surgeries you'd like, take or not take hormones. All of this needs to be an individual choice made independently of any outside pressures. You probably are trans hon...but what happens from here is entirely up to you! I hope this has helped a bit...
