Thanks but I know that therapy isn't for me. I understand that most people benefit from it but it's not for me.
Tegan, I didn't tell the therapist "I am going to kill myself" I just said that I am not going to promise him because I was being honest. I was in shock when I saw the cops because I always had this hopeless attitude towards my suffering body with other psych docs in the past.
I really am not looking for hope so it's ok to lock the topic since my original question has been answered.
Thank you